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From time to time, I've been thinking of sending in a mail to Boundless to know what they think about my feelings and desire to get married, and about Nintendo. But I have not because I have this feeling that I can answer it myself. The problem is there, but I might be 'confused' about it because the answer isn't something I would want to know. Well, here is the answer to myself, most of which came from Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris which I was lead to read by God.
Answer: Be patient, as there will be time for everything under the sun. Trust God and submit this desire to Him, do not act according to your feelings. Look at things realistically, and not let your emotions be based on your imagination. Find your satisfaction in the Lord, do not make marriage your idol.
And I've also realised that this might be infatuation, after all. :( We haven't really spent a lot of time together, so how could my feelings be this strong? It's probably baseless and didn't spun out of reality. It's not good, also because I get nervous for no good reason when I am around him. =_= It blocks me from really being myself and instead be a quiet person who sometimes say lame things, haha!
After praying about all these to God yesterday, I woke up with pleasant feelings. I still get jealous when I see him and his good girl friend acting so close and comfortable around each other, but this jealousy is not as black as the ones I had before. I've come to accept that I might not end up with him, and maybe will only get married at 30+ or so, lol.
Let Your will be done Lord, let this not take Your first place in my heart. Whether he ends up with his close friend or other people, I leave it up to you, because I believe that You have my best interest in Your heart Lord. If he's not the one I will marry, I believe that You'll bring someone better. Thank You for these feelings, and sorry for handling them improperly.
Answer: Be patient, as there will be time for everything under the sun. Trust God and submit this desire to Him, do not act according to your feelings. Look at things realistically, and not let your emotions be based on your imagination. Find your satisfaction in the Lord, do not make marriage your idol.
And I've also realised that this might be infatuation, after all. :( We haven't really spent a lot of time together, so how could my feelings be this strong? It's probably baseless and didn't spun out of reality. It's not good, also because I get nervous for no good reason when I am around him. =_= It blocks me from really being myself and instead be a quiet person who sometimes say lame things, haha!
After praying about all these to God yesterday, I woke up with pleasant feelings. I still get jealous when I see him and his good girl friend acting so close and comfortable around each other, but this jealousy is not as black as the ones I had before. I've come to accept that I might not end up with him, and maybe will only get married at 30+ or so, lol.
Let Your will be done Lord, let this not take Your first place in my heart. Whether he ends up with his close friend or other people, I leave it up to you, because I believe that You have my best interest in Your heart Lord. If he's not the one I will marry, I believe that You'll bring someone better. Thank You for these feelings, and sorry for handling them improperly.