14. communication problems
Oh, I forgot my last weekly update! I'm sorry, I'll do the post tonight.
So, these months I've been rarely using Facebook anymore, because I started to hate the comment sections. They were full of hate and negative thoughts and especially stupidity on a ridiculous level, it hurt so much to read. First thing I did was removing the app from my smartphone and I'm honest: I still do browse Facebook occasionally, when I feel like it, but it's not like I see it immediately, when I recieve any messages.
Anyway, recently I've seen lots of people, who removed me as a friend on FB. Most of the reasons are me not messaging them enough and not keeping in touch on a regular base, which is totally reasonable, but on the other hand I think its utterly bullshit, too. Most of them were close friends in the past, which is the reason I even write this entry at all. Why I think it's bullshit when they have all the reason and rights to do so? I don't say it's wrong at all, but the thing bugging me is: Why am I the one who have to message them? You know, those people weren't even trying to contact me at all themselves and last time I checked communication has to be done between two persons. If they were at least desperate to contact me without success, I would understand, but the last few years I never got a message, not even a hello when I saw them, so why am I the only one to blame when they also did nothing?
I often see people saying "I don't want to run after people like a dog", which is ok, but as I already said: In these cases it can't be applied since there were never an action before. Something like this happened before, were once very good friends excluded me from a party were my ex was invited, with the same reasoning (and they also never contacted me before) so I'm kinda used to this scenario. I'm not angry and I'm not sad, it's just I don't understand people. When the reason is "I don't see any value in a friendship with you", I'm cool with that! At least you were honest, but blaming me to never keep in touch, while you were fucking lazy yourself, too, then I'm sorry. I don't see any value in this friendship.