1. something new
Hi everyone!
How are you? I left old memories behind (ergo: deleting all my old journal entries) and want to start anew here. When I deleted my old entries I also caught a glimpse of who I was, when I was still a teenager and... I feel ashamed. I was a hardcore k-pop fangirl and wrote the most ridiculous stuff you could ever imagine, but I guess everyone lived through this kind of stage during their puberty days.
As soon as we reach the age where we don't feel disgusted by the other sex (or pretend to) anymore, we start to idolize celebrities or have a crush on someone and in this kind of stage our brain decides to jump off a cliff.
It was quite funny to see what I wrote up to 7 years ago. I had a huge crush on a very good friend of mine and never had the guts to confess to him. I wrote stuff like how I tried to deal with the situation that he suddenly had a girlfriend, but never told me of that girl before and how much that hurt me and how much I cried, because it was a one-sided love. I wrote how I started to feel better and went on with my life. I wrote a shitload about my fangirling and how much I loved Big Bang, DBSK, SHINee and Super Junior and all these Korean guys, which made me even laugh a little, considering how much I dislike k-pop and its fandoms now.
I still listen to Korean music, but not on this hardcore fangirl level anymore. I won't save every image of my favorite idol anymore and won't squeal when other people suddenly talk about k-pop, because everyone does now. I guess that's a bad habit of mine. If too many people like something, I don't like it or I'm especially not interested in it. The only exception would be food. /haha
My interests changed, but I still love art, although I'm rarely able to spend some time with it. I often feel way to pressured, when I put a pencil in my hand, because it's the only thing I'm really good at and it I fail, that would be disastrous. On the other hand, it's just a hobby of mine, so no need to exaggerate. I will take my time to improve my drawing skills again and again, up to the point I feel satisfied again, which is also a reason why I want to start anew here. I won't upload my art here (rather on my art tumblr, which can be found in the sidebar on the right), but it's a good feeling to have a fresh start.
And because this is going to be a fresh beginning, here's a tiny little introduction of mine ;)
Name: Mimi B.
Age: 23 years old
Birthdate: 5th of October (Zodiac: libra, horse)
Place: Germany (Cantonese)
Food: Asian food (especially Vietnamese), potatoes in general
Music: always depends on my mood
Obsessions: Rilakkuma, cats, hamster butts, art supplies, food
I tend to rant a lot and my opinions and point of view might not make people happy, since they're a bit destructive, but I assure you: Actually, I'm a nice girl. The only thing which makes me wanna bump my head to the wall next to me is a debate on principles. I just don't like it. Please just don't bother if I had a moment and rant way too much.
How are you? I left old memories behind (ergo: deleting all my old journal entries) and want to start anew here. When I deleted my old entries I also caught a glimpse of who I was, when I was still a teenager and... I feel ashamed. I was a hardcore k-pop fangirl and wrote the most ridiculous stuff you could ever imagine, but I guess everyone lived through this kind of stage during their puberty days.
As soon as we reach the age where we don't feel disgusted by the other sex (or pretend to) anymore, we start to idolize celebrities or have a crush on someone and in this kind of stage our brain decides to jump off a cliff.
It was quite funny to see what I wrote up to 7 years ago. I had a huge crush on a very good friend of mine and never had the guts to confess to him. I wrote stuff like how I tried to deal with the situation that he suddenly had a girlfriend, but never told me of that girl before and how much that hurt me and how much I cried, because it was a one-sided love. I wrote how I started to feel better and went on with my life. I wrote a shitload about my fangirling and how much I loved Big Bang, DBSK, SHINee and Super Junior and all these Korean guys, which made me even laugh a little, considering how much I dislike k-pop and its fandoms now.
I still listen to Korean music, but not on this hardcore fangirl level anymore. I won't save every image of my favorite idol anymore and won't squeal when other people suddenly talk about k-pop, because everyone does now. I guess that's a bad habit of mine. If too many people like something, I don't like it or I'm especially not interested in it. The only exception would be food. /haha
My interests changed, but I still love art, although I'm rarely able to spend some time with it. I often feel way to pressured, when I put a pencil in my hand, because it's the only thing I'm really good at and it I fail, that would be disastrous. On the other hand, it's just a hobby of mine, so no need to exaggerate. I will take my time to improve my drawing skills again and again, up to the point I feel satisfied again, which is also a reason why I want to start anew here. I won't upload my art here (rather on my art tumblr, which can be found in the sidebar on the right), but it's a good feeling to have a fresh start.
And because this is going to be a fresh beginning, here's a tiny little introduction of mine ;)
Name: Mimi B.
Age: 23 years old
Birthdate: 5th of October (Zodiac: libra, horse)
Place: Germany (Cantonese)
Food: Asian food (especially Vietnamese), potatoes in general
Music: always depends on my mood
Obsessions: Rilakkuma, cats, hamster butts, art supplies, food
I tend to rant a lot and my opinions and point of view might not make people happy, since they're a bit destructive, but I assure you: Actually, I'm a nice girl. The only thing which makes me wanna bump my head to the wall next to me is a debate on principles. I just don't like it. Please just don't bother if I had a moment and rant way too much.