Wow how time flies...

Jan 21, 2007 04:33

So two weeks ago I was on the Sunshine coast in Queensland and I realised that it was exactly one year since my surgery, and I wanted it to be a big deal, and to celebrate, but my heart wasn't in it. I'm just trying to get as far away from the whole aweful thing as I can. I should post some more photos, I look very different. In about september, after I got my braces off, all of the residual swelling dropped out of my face and for like 3 or 4 weeks everyone was asking me if I had lost weight, which of course is always a nice feeling! I still have extremely limited feeling in my chin, but I think that this is probably more due tto the chin augmentation than the actual jaw surgery. I also have a clicky left jaw, and I still do the exercises the physio gave me, it only gets really bad when I try to do things like bite into an apple. Which by the way after not being able to do it for 3 1/2 years is severely overrated! Other than that I am feeling much better about my new face. The most difficult part is seeing photos of things like my wedding and knowing that that person is me, and then again it also isn't. I know I have changed a lot on the emotional side of things since the surgery, it makes you deal directly with the issue of vanity, and why you went through all this in the first place, was it really to be able to chew better and to stave off jaw problems in the future? Or was there that small or maybe large part of you, who just wants to look a little bit more "normal", to try and be more conventionally good looking.

Anyway, so I got back from queensland at the end of November and stepped into all kinds of craziness, being my first christmas at borders and all. We were so freaking crazy busy!!!! I had a few issues with not knowing what the hell I was doing since my management training consisted of "here are the safe codes and the keys to the store, go get em tiger!" Or something to that effect. It's all good now that we've been a bit quieter since christmas and all that.

Jeff and I are ok at the moment, but there is always unresolved stuff waiting on the horizon to blow up in my face, especially because I'm a sneaky little bitch who has all kinds of ill kept secrets. Also I am taking him to meet my work friends tomorrow night for our "christmas party" which we didn't actually have time to organise before christmas. It should be interesting...

Anyway, Jeff is hoping to help me fix my wireless connection so I can get back into being connected, I miss all my net friends...:(
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