Hah!
With all my paperwork done, all that I have left to do is to turn in that substitution application...
Not sure if I can handle tutoring, school, and substituting but I wonder if it is a good idea to give it a try. I think it's time to reset my schedule to a more reasonable pace instead of winging my tutoring and coming in at odd times... LOL.
As for my classes...well...
It's frustrating because I have little to talk about and I'm not very opinionated. I know I should be, but for some reason, I think I'm falling into moratorium. Bad timing on my behalf. Everything seems pointless and the work they're making me do is part hillarious and part interesting. I hope things change, but at the moment, things really suck.
I see future teachers sitting in their seats beaming with enthusiasm, thinking that they're going to nurture their students with love and support. They already believe that they're going to be somewhat successful because they're going to be prepared. I doubt that it is going to happen, partly because not all students are going to be equal. They learn at different rates and have different ways of learning. Not every student is going to warm up to every teachers' style of teaching.
Although I say this, I know that a good percent of those taking the class are going ot be great teachers after a good trial-and-error run. And I believe that I'm going to be one of them. I value education as much as every single person in that classroom, even though I don't show it. However, I know that I have a lot more to learn before I become a "decent" teacher. And I know I should know my field like the back of my hand, but to be truthful, I don't. People will already judge me because they believe that I have to know my field.
Must I act like all-knowledgable? I know my stuff, just give me a book to refresh my mind and I can show you how good I am. And yet, I feel that being in the history field, not all history teachers need to know the exact dates of every event that has happened in the past. I know I shouldn't be like "oh if they don't know, that gives me the option to not know my stuff too!" But at the same time, I don't blame them since they're tethered down by the California Content Standards and state exams. Teachers and students are stressed to the point where they can't maintain that enthusiasm that they had in the very beginning...
Perhaps I'm being an idiot here. I think I'm going to spend this summer reading and travelling. Re-reading my history books (perhaps purchase some good narrative versions) and experience the world firsthand. I'm going to try my best to go to as many places as possible and hopefully that'll be enough time for me to un-jam myself from this weird state of mind.
Future teachers are the scientists who must test their theories (teaching style) on unfortunate subjects (students).
That is what I believe and I want to make sure that my future students get what they need to continue on being successful. There's failure along the road, I understand that 100%, but I hope that I avoid them as much as I can. Compromise and patience... Enthusiasm is always good to maintain also.
I'm going to show the world that this little girl is going to be as successful as she envisioned herself to be! HAH!
Also, a friend of mines has an idea of opening a little joint that serves food and drinks (boba and other popular "kick-back" beverages) with a side of music (live band play). Perhaps that might just happen in the future. Sounds like a good investment since there are four minds that have that in mind. It might be possible... And if you're thinking of a bunch of questions, I have the same exact one's in mind :D
Just a thought. Perhaps an opportunity will present itself sometime along the timeline. But with California's wonderful costs, I think it'll take a lot of effort time and money. And committment is a major factor.
Heh, when I think of four, I think of the Big Four. Haha. Go History. I love it damn, I have to admit it LOL.
Shit, I think I remember the transcontinental railroad information more than anything else >_< Where is my WWI and II information? Omg, my brain!
*implodes* :O
Not sure if I can handle tutoring, school, and substituting but I wonder if it is a good idea to give it a try. I think it's time to reset my schedule to a more reasonable pace instead of winging my tutoring and coming in at odd times... LOL.
As for my classes...well...
It's frustrating because I have little to talk about and I'm not very opinionated. I know I should be, but for some reason, I think I'm falling into moratorium. Bad timing on my behalf. Everything seems pointless and the work they're making me do is part hillarious and part interesting. I hope things change, but at the moment, things really suck.
I see future teachers sitting in their seats beaming with enthusiasm, thinking that they're going to nurture their students with love and support. They already believe that they're going to be somewhat successful because they're going to be prepared. I doubt that it is going to happen, partly because not all students are going to be equal. They learn at different rates and have different ways of learning. Not every student is going to warm up to every teachers' style of teaching.
Although I say this, I know that a good percent of those taking the class are going ot be great teachers after a good trial-and-error run. And I believe that I'm going to be one of them. I value education as much as every single person in that classroom, even though I don't show it. However, I know that I have a lot more to learn before I become a "decent" teacher. And I know I should know my field like the back of my hand, but to be truthful, I don't. People will already judge me because they believe that I have to know my field.
Must I act like all-knowledgable? I know my stuff, just give me a book to refresh my mind and I can show you how good I am. And yet, I feel that being in the history field, not all history teachers need to know the exact dates of every event that has happened in the past. I know I shouldn't be like "oh if they don't know, that gives me the option to not know my stuff too!" But at the same time, I don't blame them since they're tethered down by the California Content Standards and state exams. Teachers and students are stressed to the point where they can't maintain that enthusiasm that they had in the very beginning...
Perhaps I'm being an idiot here. I think I'm going to spend this summer reading and travelling. Re-reading my history books (perhaps purchase some good narrative versions) and experience the world firsthand. I'm going to try my best to go to as many places as possible and hopefully that'll be enough time for me to un-jam myself from this weird state of mind.
Future teachers are the scientists who must test their theories (teaching style) on unfortunate subjects (students).
That is what I believe and I want to make sure that my future students get what they need to continue on being successful. There's failure along the road, I understand that 100%, but I hope that I avoid them as much as I can. Compromise and patience... Enthusiasm is always good to maintain also.
I'm going to show the world that this little girl is going to be as successful as she envisioned herself to be! HAH!
Also, a friend of mines has an idea of opening a little joint that serves food and drinks (boba and other popular "kick-back" beverages) with a side of music (live band play). Perhaps that might just happen in the future. Sounds like a good investment since there are four minds that have that in mind. It might be possible... And if you're thinking of a bunch of questions, I have the same exact one's in mind :D
Just a thought. Perhaps an opportunity will present itself sometime along the timeline. But with California's wonderful costs, I think it'll take a lot of effort time and money. And committment is a major factor.
Heh, when I think of four, I think of the Big Four. Haha. Go History. I love it damn, I have to admit it LOL.
Shit, I think I remember the transcontinental railroad information more than anything else >_< Where is my WWI and II information? Omg, my brain!
*implodes* :O