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being sober isn't so hard. i think the worst part is having to spend time talking about how i have "a serious problem" when i know that i can quit on my own. i have quit. the only difference is that i'm an on and off abuser, ha. i was sober for all of 2005, but jumped back into it when annie left me for meth. i felt it was a legitimate reason, but they call that justification, i didn't deserve to drown my sorrows in that way, i should have been a stronger person and worked through my grief naturally.
i was sober again for six months before moving to the Hazel Dell house, and after getting fed up with my roommates being such shitty assholes, being the only one that cleans i made a decision to go sober. On my own accord. i hadn't had anything to drink for more than a month before i got a DUI, which was bullshit anyway, i blew a .0833 when i got downtown after being arrested in my driveway
and now i haven't had a drink since my arrest on sept 9th
really though, going to AA makes me want to drink in a way that addiction never has. listening to these fuckers that have 4 or 5 DUIs fuckin 50 years old and they've been drunk since 20, shit. i never want to be there, i know its a slippery slope, but i feel i deserve more credit than this, maybe just enough leniency to keep my licence, i mean this is costing me like $10,000 either way.. so much for that toyota i was going to buy.. i'm stuck in the fucking VW for like five more years.. if the thing keeps running (please)
its really hard getting dates in a 40 year old pile.
i was sober again for six months before moving to the Hazel Dell house, and after getting fed up with my roommates being such shitty assholes, being the only one that cleans i made a decision to go sober. On my own accord. i hadn't had anything to drink for more than a month before i got a DUI, which was bullshit anyway, i blew a .0833 when i got downtown after being arrested in my driveway
and now i haven't had a drink since my arrest on sept 9th
really though, going to AA makes me want to drink in a way that addiction never has. listening to these fuckers that have 4 or 5 DUIs fuckin 50 years old and they've been drunk since 20, shit. i never want to be there, i know its a slippery slope, but i feel i deserve more credit than this, maybe just enough leniency to keep my licence, i mean this is costing me like $10,000 either way.. so much for that toyota i was going to buy.. i'm stuck in the fucking VW for like five more years.. if the thing keeps running (please)
its really hard getting dates in a 40 year old pile.