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so i've been totally sober for two weeks, and the only thing i've noticed about myself is the fact that i'm highly irritable. In fact, this has prolly been one of the worst weeks ever. When i got the DUI my work changed my job title from driver, to drive instructor, since my licence is suspended. i've been training new beer guys... this most recent guy, Mark, i seriously dislike personally and professionally. he reminds me of an old ass heroin addict, bad driving skills, and won't listen to someone as young as I am, but i could drive circles around him, backwards, if need be. plus his lazy ass just slows me down when i have to rework everything he does and explain it to him over and over again. he just won't listen.
mark isn't the only person pissing me off. my roommate joe owes me $400 fucking dollars for three weeks now, and he totally avoids me. my sister alexandra needs to give a car title to me, but she can't find it, so shes avoiding me too. in fact, she wanted me to do her a favor and buy two cases of champagne, but wouldn't call me herself, she made my mother do it.. i shouldn't even need to start about my mother.
i'm almost worried about my sanity. as mad as i get at anyone, i imagine taking all my anger out on one particular person, one that hasn't done me wrong in a long time, however, the worst blatent disrespect.. i don't think it would bother me in the least to flat out murder him... no one else... just this one guy.... i've had some serious fantasies about killing him and gained pleasure from the thought. for real i'd put his name here but i don't want to end up killing him and getting caught because of livejournal.
did i mention i hate the name mark?
today wasn't bad, some driver got fired, and they took the jackass trainee to work somewhere else, and i got to drive a 45 footer to yacolt... i should have refused since i would go to jail if i was caught, but i really wanted to drive.. i haven't since labor day
i'm getting sick, my throats swollen, and my head is pounding.
well, that wasn't even all whats on my mind. but i don't think i should share that with the world, or anyone. i'm just going to bottle it up and eventually turn that bottle into a molotov.
i think i'm about to go get seriously drunk. that will help my cold i'm sure.
mark isn't the only person pissing me off. my roommate joe owes me $400 fucking dollars for three weeks now, and he totally avoids me. my sister alexandra needs to give a car title to me, but she can't find it, so shes avoiding me too. in fact, she wanted me to do her a favor and buy two cases of champagne, but wouldn't call me herself, she made my mother do it.. i shouldn't even need to start about my mother.
i'm almost worried about my sanity. as mad as i get at anyone, i imagine taking all my anger out on one particular person, one that hasn't done me wrong in a long time, however, the worst blatent disrespect.. i don't think it would bother me in the least to flat out murder him... no one else... just this one guy.... i've had some serious fantasies about killing him and gained pleasure from the thought. for real i'd put his name here but i don't want to end up killing him and getting caught because of livejournal.
did i mention i hate the name mark?
today wasn't bad, some driver got fired, and they took the jackass trainee to work somewhere else, and i got to drive a 45 footer to yacolt... i should have refused since i would go to jail if i was caught, but i really wanted to drive.. i haven't since labor day
i'm getting sick, my throats swollen, and my head is pounding.
well, that wasn't even all whats on my mind. but i don't think i should share that with the world, or anyone. i'm just going to bottle it up and eventually turn that bottle into a molotov.
i think i'm about to go get seriously drunk. that will help my cold i'm sure.