Waiting is the hardest thing to do...
Wow, lots has happened.
Moved on Saturday, got settled at Jenelle and Mike's. It was a long day. To top it all off, Jason confirmed my fears and decided he was too tired to be in a relationship. My dad ended up coming to get me Saturday night because I was so upset and all by myself in that apt. I stayed home all day Sunday, and came back to the apt to some very welcoming arms. I cried for a while more, then ate brownies, ice cream, quesadillas, and had some liquor. I have some amazing friends that know exactly how to make things better, at least as much as they can. We watched a movie, then I headed to bed, even though I had slept virtually all day.
Monday was really hard. I sat at work and cried off and on. J and I emailed eachother, which made me feel a little better. But I still miss him like crazy and haven't really gotten thru this all in my head. I am trying to be supportive of his decision, but it's hard when we were both so upset about it. I just hope he figures things out soon. I just can't really imagine him not being around. My family loves him and my friends do too. I suppose all I can do now is go on with the summer, and hope that he'll come around some day soon. The longer I wait, the harder it gets. But I am determined to leave him to himself until he is ready.
Oye. This sucks. I hate how timing screws things up sometimes.
back to work.
Moved on Saturday, got settled at Jenelle and Mike's. It was a long day. To top it all off, Jason confirmed my fears and decided he was too tired to be in a relationship. My dad ended up coming to get me Saturday night because I was so upset and all by myself in that apt. I stayed home all day Sunday, and came back to the apt to some very welcoming arms. I cried for a while more, then ate brownies, ice cream, quesadillas, and had some liquor. I have some amazing friends that know exactly how to make things better, at least as much as they can. We watched a movie, then I headed to bed, even though I had slept virtually all day.
Monday was really hard. I sat at work and cried off and on. J and I emailed eachother, which made me feel a little better. But I still miss him like crazy and haven't really gotten thru this all in my head. I am trying to be supportive of his decision, but it's hard when we were both so upset about it. I just hope he figures things out soon. I just can't really imagine him not being around. My family loves him and my friends do too. I suppose all I can do now is go on with the summer, and hope that he'll come around some day soon. The longer I wait, the harder it gets. But I am determined to leave him to himself until he is ready.
Oye. This sucks. I hate how timing screws things up sometimes.
back to work.