Misery
Title: Misery
Chapter: Chapter 1
Author:
knobay
Main pairings: UruhaxAoi, AoixRuki
Genre:Romance,Angst,Death,Depression
Rating: PG-13-NC-17(Maybe)
Warning: Language,Drugs
Disclaimer:Aoi teaching me guitar. I do not own The Gazette in anyway.
Summary: What’s wrong they say. “Nothing” is my reply. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing."
A/N: I decided to delete Toxic Love. I felt like there was no plot. Thanks for Blueberrygonuts for being my beta reader for this chap.
What’s wrong they say. “Nothing” is my reply. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. The word repeats in my head on a daily bases. I don’t know the word happy. So let me, let you in on my story. It’s a sad tale.
It started when I was a little kid. I was never good enough. I was never cute enough. I was judge on everything I did. Everything. You know when your parents have one children that’s the “star” child. They think the rest of their kids are the same. That’s incorrect for the most part. My brother, my older brother. He was perfect. He could do no wrong, me on the other hand. I was told I was a mistake. My father would say. “I wish your mother never had you.” or “I wish she had gotten a abortion or given you up for adoption.” My father would say that right to my face all the time. But my brother loved me. We were like peanut butter and jelly. He protected me.
I look at my clock it was six am. It was time to get up and get ready for my First day of college. I should be so happy right? I sighed and got out of bed.
Soon after getting dress I went down stairs to the kitchen. On the fridge was my chart. On my chart I have to follow everyday said Karin. Karin is my psychologist. My mother calls it a therapist because she doesn’t like the word psychologist. She doesn’t think I’m crazy or lost…
“Morning sweetie, Sorry I didn’t make breakfast for you. I had the night shift at the hospital.” My mother enters the kitchen.
“You don’t need to make breakfast for this piece of shit.” My father also enter the room.
“Not now.” My mother say to him.
“No he needs to hear it. He a piece of shit. You ruined this family you know that? You’re mother and I work day and night to bring you a better life. Then you start this depressed bullshit. You’re a fucking failure you never been through shit. I don’t know why I’m putting you through school. Your not that smart. ”
I sat there in silence. I blanked him out of my mind. I slowly got up and walked to my bathroom while he was still screaming at me. I went in my medicine cabinet and got my pills. They were organized from Monday to Sunday. After I took my Monday pills I went over to my bed and lifted my mattress and got my stash and started snorting it up my nose.
People say that doing drugs are wrong, I agree. I’ve basically done every drug in the book. It gives you some type of rush it feels like your flying. It makes me happy for once it doesn’t last long though. But it was enough to start school with.
*Couple hours later*
I entered the gym where the seminar was suppose to be held and sat down one the benches. As the principal was talking I felt someone staring at me.
Lunch time came around. I found an empty table and got my bag and pulled out a book.
“Why are you sitting alone?” A tall light brownish blonde haired guy asked me. He was very beautiful and he had sparks in his eyes. It was the same guy that was staring at me in the gym.
“ I don’t know, I just want too.” he frowned at me and sat at the table anyway.
“Well its not good to sit alone. I’m Takashima Kouyou but people call me Uruha. And you?”
“I’m Shiroyama Yuu.”
“Do you have a nickname I could call you by. I kinda hate calling people by there real names.”
“Um. Aoi” I looked down. My brother called me that. It was something special.
“Is there something wrong?” Uruha looked worried.
“Uh no. Nothing at all.” I smiled to make him seem not worried.
Uruha and I had a nice conversation. He was a very cheerful person. I wanted that cheerfulness he had. He had a nice aura around him I wanted more of it.
“Hi I’m Reita. I’m Uruha cousin.” a guy said with blonde hair showed up.
“Hi, I’m AA-Aoi.” I stuttered
“O.K no need to be shy. Sorry I didn’t come earlier Kai and I miss the seminar and got in trouble. And Ruki skip today. Can you believe he skip on the first day of school typical of him.”
“Where Kai?” Uruha asked.
“Still in the office. It was my fault, you know Kai a goodie two shoes.” He laughed.
“I am not a goodie two shoes.” Reita jumped out of his chair, everyone started to laugh.
“I can be bad I just don’t show it.” Kai grinning showing his dimples.
“Shut up.” Reita pushing Kai.
“Ow Reita. Oh I’m sorry for not introducing myself I’m Kai.” Kai was smiling more.
“I’m Aoi, nice to meet you.”
While Kai and Reita were still arguing Uruha invited me to his place after we ate. I gladly agreed and we left.
“Sorry if it’s not much I just moved in couple days ago.”
“Nah it’s cool to have a place of your own. Especially in Tokyo” I said.
*45 minutes later*
After a couple of beers later we were talking nonstop. I look at my watch it was time to go. I took a taxi home and walked into my house. I could hear my Mother and Father screaming at each other. Walking up the stairs at the screaming got louder. I slam the door to make them know that I was there. But I knew they didn’t care. I opened my nightstand and started writing in my journal about my day. After writing in my journal I went to my goal board in my room. Karin said it will help me know what I’m reaching for. I wrote Uruha as one of my new goals on the board.
Chapter: Chapter 1
Author:
knobay
Main pairings: UruhaxAoi, AoixRuki
Genre:Romance,Angst,Death,Depression
Rating: PG-13-NC-17(Maybe)
Warning: Language,Drugs
Disclaimer:Aoi teaching me guitar. I do not own The Gazette in anyway.
Summary: What’s wrong they say. “Nothing” is my reply. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing."
A/N: I decided to delete Toxic Love. I felt like there was no plot. Thanks for Blueberrygonuts for being my beta reader for this chap.
What’s wrong they say. “Nothing” is my reply. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. The word repeats in my head on a daily bases. I don’t know the word happy. So let me, let you in on my story. It’s a sad tale.
It started when I was a little kid. I was never good enough. I was never cute enough. I was judge on everything I did. Everything. You know when your parents have one children that’s the “star” child. They think the rest of their kids are the same. That’s incorrect for the most part. My brother, my older brother. He was perfect. He could do no wrong, me on the other hand. I was told I was a mistake. My father would say. “I wish your mother never had you.” or “I wish she had gotten a abortion or given you up for adoption.” My father would say that right to my face all the time. But my brother loved me. We were like peanut butter and jelly. He protected me.
I look at my clock it was six am. It was time to get up and get ready for my First day of college. I should be so happy right? I sighed and got out of bed.
Soon after getting dress I went down stairs to the kitchen. On the fridge was my chart. On my chart I have to follow everyday said Karin. Karin is my psychologist. My mother calls it a therapist because she doesn’t like the word psychologist. She doesn’t think I’m crazy or lost…
“Morning sweetie, Sorry I didn’t make breakfast for you. I had the night shift at the hospital.” My mother enters the kitchen.
“You don’t need to make breakfast for this piece of shit.” My father also enter the room.
“Not now.” My mother say to him.
“No he needs to hear it. He a piece of shit. You ruined this family you know that? You’re mother and I work day and night to bring you a better life. Then you start this depressed bullshit. You’re a fucking failure you never been through shit. I don’t know why I’m putting you through school. Your not that smart. ”
I sat there in silence. I blanked him out of my mind. I slowly got up and walked to my bathroom while he was still screaming at me. I went in my medicine cabinet and got my pills. They were organized from Monday to Sunday. After I took my Monday pills I went over to my bed and lifted my mattress and got my stash and started snorting it up my nose.
People say that doing drugs are wrong, I agree. I’ve basically done every drug in the book. It gives you some type of rush it feels like your flying. It makes me happy for once it doesn’t last long though. But it was enough to start school with.
*Couple hours later*
I entered the gym where the seminar was suppose to be held and sat down one the benches. As the principal was talking I felt someone staring at me.
Lunch time came around. I found an empty table and got my bag and pulled out a book.
“Why are you sitting alone?” A tall light brownish blonde haired guy asked me. He was very beautiful and he had sparks in his eyes. It was the same guy that was staring at me in the gym.
“ I don’t know, I just want too.” he frowned at me and sat at the table anyway.
“Well its not good to sit alone. I’m Takashima Kouyou but people call me Uruha. And you?”
“I’m Shiroyama Yuu.”
“Do you have a nickname I could call you by. I kinda hate calling people by there real names.”
“Um. Aoi” I looked down. My brother called me that. It was something special.
“Is there something wrong?” Uruha looked worried.
“Uh no. Nothing at all.” I smiled to make him seem not worried.
Uruha and I had a nice conversation. He was a very cheerful person. I wanted that cheerfulness he had. He had a nice aura around him I wanted more of it.
“Hi I’m Reita. I’m Uruha cousin.” a guy said with blonde hair showed up.
“Hi, I’m AA-Aoi.” I stuttered
“O.K no need to be shy. Sorry I didn’t come earlier Kai and I miss the seminar and got in trouble. And Ruki skip today. Can you believe he skip on the first day of school typical of him.”
“Where Kai?” Uruha asked.
“Still in the office. It was my fault, you know Kai a goodie two shoes.” He laughed.
“I am not a goodie two shoes.” Reita jumped out of his chair, everyone started to laugh.
“I can be bad I just don’t show it.” Kai grinning showing his dimples.
“Shut up.” Reita pushing Kai.
“Ow Reita. Oh I’m sorry for not introducing myself I’m Kai.” Kai was smiling more.
“I’m Aoi, nice to meet you.”
While Kai and Reita were still arguing Uruha invited me to his place after we ate. I gladly agreed and we left.
“Sorry if it’s not much I just moved in couple days ago.”
“Nah it’s cool to have a place of your own. Especially in Tokyo” I said.
*45 minutes later*
After a couple of beers later we were talking nonstop. I look at my watch it was time to go. I took a taxi home and walked into my house. I could hear my Mother and Father screaming at each other. Walking up the stairs at the screaming got louder. I slam the door to make them know that I was there. But I knew they didn’t care. I opened my nightstand and started writing in my journal about my day. After writing in my journal I went to my goal board in my room. Karin said it will help me know what I’m reaching for. I wrote Uruha as one of my new goals on the board.