hooray disease...

[knit_me_a_heart]

i have skin cancer. not the easily removed, easily gotten rid of, ill feel better in a few days kind. a depth of 1.0 or less, you generally walk away fine, it never comes back. 4.0 and higher, you dont usually survive. im a 2.7 that they know of now. after surgery ill know more. they have to remove some of my lymphnode glads in my neck at the time of surgery to see if its spread to my body yet. if it has, i have to undergo chemo. the melanoma is on my face. my cheek. im going to have a scar running across my cheek, down my face in front of my ear, down my neck and across my throat. no joke. everyone keeps telling me how strong i am and ill be okay in a few months.

little do they know, im dying inside pretending to be strong. ive never been so scared in all my life.

surgery should be within the next two weeks. and all i really want right now are friends. please send me letters. something silly, something happy. not "get better soon!" cards. i dont want cards. i want friendly every day mail. handmade mail.

im going to be okay.
i think.

also, leaving comments here wont do much good. i get online once a month.

desiree 37 william st carver ma 02330

i miss you guys!
508.863.2042