Beautiful Day in Steamboat

[kmacgray]

Well, it's a beautiful day here in good ole Steamboat Springs Colorado! I had my Realty Estate School for the last 4 days, today is my "Weekend" if you will. I really like my class, so that's good. Iv'e got send off my fathers day present to my dad! I'll do that today. I have a struggle going on righ tnow. i'm pretty sure God is asking me to be on

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[jenjoyb]

Do you have time to do this and not overextend yourself emotionally or physically? Why do you feel it is something God is calling you to obey? What leads you to believe it is a test of obedience? Do you really want to do it? If yes, what are the reasons you desire to? (these aren't necessarily questions for you to give me answers to as much as guides for yourself.) Often, with opportunities like singing on the worship team, He gives us freedom to choose what we want to do. If you have a song in your heart..then by all means sing! But if it is at the expense of other things He has already called you to, (a new career, time to be with your hubby/Isa/Jesus and serve them well, or enough time for you to lead a relaxed/reflective life,)then I would question if it is God nudging you to do it or pressure from something or someone else.
A.Jenny

Singing on the worship team

[kmacgray]

im only talking about singing one week, not being a fixture up there. And i feel like God is calling me not necessarily to obey. But he has opened my eyes about how opressed i am and held captive by my fear of things. it paralyzes me. I feel like he has been calling me to do this for 2 years now. Its this thing in my head that keeps coming up, that i keep shunning off. If i can't get over my fear in an area as small as this, what is going to happen when and if God calls me to do something like...i don't know, kill goliath for example. I am not gloriying God by my fear, that much is evident, how can you? God has given me a gift of singing. Granted i might not be that great, but he has given me the gift to at least carry a tune. How could i not use that for his glory? I feel like if i can't do this then im going to allow myself to be held captive by my fear for way too long. Why not cease the opportunity? One of my gifts (most of the time) I believe is when i hear God speak, i act upon it right away, without asking, why, without

Re: Singing on the worship team

[kmacgray]

ALso, i feel ike God has given me a song. But that it's been so smothered, and shut down by me, that now there is this terrible fear. I have no fear of being on stage if it is a play. I am someone else, and the lights are too bright to see anybody. On the worship team id be up there naked.Looking into the eyes of other people i know and interact with while im working through a big fear of mine. Myself, for everyone to see. Im not saying i hide behind being someone other than myself in real life, i don't. But singing is much more intimate to me. Im putting myself up to be critisized and ridiculed of my voice, howi compare to to ohers that have sung. And yet, i would be up there for all the right reasons, but you can't help but think of what people will say. Thats not really my real fear though, im getting off track...I just feel like i need to do this. I don't want to be like grandma...so scared to do anything. I want to stand proud in front of the Lord one day and say i let him use me for his good by knocking down my fear and

Re: Singing on the worship team

[jenjoyb]

"I could make up a million reasons why i couldn;t sing. But all of them come from my root of fear. Not one is truth"
This sounds like a good insight. :)