Beautiful Day in Steamboat

[kmacgray]

Well, it's a beautiful day here in good ole Steamboat Springs Colorado! I had my Realty Estate School for the last 4 days, today is my "Weekend" if you will. I really like my class, so that's good. Iv'e got send off my fathers day present to my dad! I'll do that today. I have a struggle going on righ tnow. i'm pretty sure God is asking me to be on

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Re: Singing on the worship team

[kmacgray]

ALso, i feel ike God has given me a song. But that it's been so smothered, and shut down by me, that now there is this terrible fear. I have no fear of being on stage if it is a play. I am someone else, and the lights are too bright to see anybody. On the worship team id be up there naked.Looking into the eyes of other people i know and interact with while im working through a big fear of mine. Myself, for everyone to see. Im not saying i hide behind being someone other than myself in real life, i don't. But singing is much more intimate to me. Im putting myself up to be critisized and ridiculed of my voice, howi compare to to ohers that have sung. And yet, i would be up there for all the right reasons, but you can't help but think of what people will say. Thats not really my real fear though, im getting off track...I just feel like i need to do this. I don't want to be like grandma...so scared to do anything. I want to stand proud in front of the Lord one day and say i let him use me for his good by knocking down my fear and insecurities with his help. theres many other areas i have yet to work on, but he has not walked me through those yet. I dont want to ignore him walking me through this. I could make up a million reasons why i couldn;t sing. But all of them come from my root of fear. Not one is truth.

Re: Singing on the worship team

[jenjoyb]

"I could make up a million reasons why i couldn;t sing. But all of them come from my root of fear. Not one is truth"
This sounds like a good insight. :)