"twenty years has gone so fast"
So today I officially got old. Okay so 20 isn't old but it's just weird to look back on old birthdays, old friends, and past times. No big surprise here but every man in my life let me down once again. No phone calls or emails. I mean I guess I'm just being selfish but all I ask for is a little recognition on my birthday. My dad had to work so he wasn't even home today to see me, I mean I understand that DB has a kid so he probably just forgot being all caught up in that, Joe, I'm not that close with to where he would remember my birthday, and last but not least Matt. I guess it was a stretch to hope he would call seeing as we don't talk, and when we were friends I had to constantly remind him for a month when it was but it was that little glimpse of hope that every guy in my life wouldn't let me down. I mean when he turned 21 Jen and I made a point to get him something just to show that we still care about him even though we don't talk, and that we still think about him. I guess he's just a point in his life where he needs to concentrate on himself and that’s cool, it really is, I guess I was just hoping that on my someone who I cared about would have me in mind ya know? Oh well. This is why I don't trust guys and or can't count on them. Hence me being a lone on yet another birthday :-( anyways...
On a good note my friends here rock and I love them all dearly! Thursday night they surprised us with cake and balloons and a huge card (pictures are on my yahoo pictures on my profile), My friend Lauren rocks and I love her and I don't know where I would be without her. She put it all together so my props out to her! :-* MUAH! And Merry, Todd, Sam and Hedi were all there and I heart them all. I was in such a bad mood ( long story) and to have everyone I care about in my room at once was nice!
My family is stupid but what else is new?
It's so weird to look back at old birthdays. My mom and Merry took us to the 99 tonight and it reminded me of the time where I celebrated my birthday like 3 weeks late till Kevin, Iliana and all them were back from college, and the big group of us went to the movies and to the 99 and they got like the whole side of the restaurant to sing to us lol. I still have that card lol. Or the little surprise party band kids threw for us in the drum room when I turned 16 and convinced us that people had looted the drum room lol. And the birthday car ride around the H.S. and middle school. It just crazy how things have changed, how people have changed.
well now that I've gotten myself all depressed I'm gonna try to enjoy what’s left of my birthday... peace out kids.