My Heart Bleeds No More.
i think i messed up things with shane pretty bad. yeah we talked about a lot of stuff, but thats just it. we TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING. that just makes things awkward and weird now. i dont want it to be and i wont, but he might be, which is what im afraid of. im just scared that i might of just ruined a great friendship with someone that i really like. :-(
he was just great, and he made me happy. and he knows that now, cuz i told him. that would just make me feel weird around someone if they told me i was their happy thought.,.
why do i mess things up so bad?! ahhh
and we didnt even go out last night because i forgot his number and i couldnt find it. Argh, so he might think im mad at him because things did not end so well on friday. dammit. i wish he hadnt been at jakes. blah. yeah its good that he knows about how i feel and stuff but at the same time, its not becuz it just complicates things...ya know?
argh!
shit
ok im gonna go to the movies now w/ G and tony.
:*(
later.,.
he was just great, and he made me happy. and he knows that now, cuz i told him. that would just make me feel weird around someone if they told me i was their happy thought.,.
why do i mess things up so bad?! ahhh
and we didnt even go out last night because i forgot his number and i couldnt find it. Argh, so he might think im mad at him because things did not end so well on friday. dammit. i wish he hadnt been at jakes. blah. yeah its good that he knows about how i feel and stuff but at the same time, its not becuz it just complicates things...ya know?
argh!
shit
ok im gonna go to the movies now w/ G and tony.
:*(
later.,.