DdD unit...
last nite was pretty great. around 8 or 9 last night, erich and nidhi came over to loris and we went to meijers to get sum supplies for the night. me n michelle did at least. after, we went to bills and lots of random people were there. brett and me talked for once in a long time and i watched his stuff. and got a hug and i want to hang out w/ him again soon, i miss that kid like you wouldn't believe. :(
well bills dad came home and so we left and we went to jake kesslers. i called becky bohn to tell her to go but i dont think she did. the place was packed! taimour kinda pushed me into the bathroom when he was saying hi! LOL i fell....hehehe and i went upstairs and im in the kitchen and lori nicole and michelle and maybe even amanda come up and are like...shanes here! i was like..huh? LOL and he came up and said hi and we started talking. he was smoking! not that i cared, cuz i dont care if people smoke, no big deal...but he lied about it. and i knew he'd been drinking cuz he told me he only smokes when he drinks....soo yeah. again, he lied. i dont know why he just didnt tell me he did that stuff, cuz i told him i do. he called me a hypocrite! i was like...i am not...im not mad that your doing it, im mad cuz u lied about doing it. so that kinda makes him the hypocrite cuz he was like..that stuff dumb...and hes doing it too! ahhh. anyway..so we were sitting at the table for who knows how long talking. and i was crying cuz i was upset about stuff. but it wasnt an out of control cry, just a weeping one. like...tears falling every once in a while... i was sad. then big W gets there w/ jim hill. jim called me a gangsta cuz i was drinking right from the 5th, i wouldnt of but i didnt have anything to mix it with...lol so down it went straight. W offered to call jimmy hughes just for me, to make me feel better! i dont remember what i said, but i did flick them off at one point..whoops. oh well, its all good. anyway, i was still talking to shane after W and jim went away. he was like, wanna go outside? so i said, sure. and we went to walk around the block or something. i almost slipped on ice. we were talking, actually about a lot of personal stuff. lori nicole and amanda left, me and michelle stayed. W took her home and shane said he would take me home....sooo we get in his car and talk for a while too. lots of stuff came out about how i feel about him and other stuff too. but im not worried about things getting weird at all...cuz I'm me, the master of keeping things normal after certain things get said or happen. becuz i dont attach...thats the key. so then he started driving to take me home. i remember getting mad and trying to get out at a red light, but i couldnt open the door fast enough after unlocking it, cuz he kept relocking it. heh. then we get to my driveway and were still talking...and hes like, im gonna go to your door and tell your mom what youve been doing! and i was like no! and he got out and i got out and pushed him back to his car lol. eeeks i was really drunk. i had to pee so bad! so i said bye to shane and were still gonna go out tonight, just friends. no date. that was established lol. no weirdness, cuz i wont let there be. :)
so i came in and went potty and i called david, no one answered, so then i called lori. i dont kno what we tlaked about. then i called um...sweat but i was in a good mood. not sad or anything. well i kinda tried to apologize. but its hard to when you dont really mean it. i dunno. the last thing he said was something like...i have to do this i know you'll understand and he hung up on me. i felt like crying for like 2 seconds and then i just hung up the phone and layed in bed for like a minute sad and then i didnt really feel bad about anything so i went to sleep. i woke up at like 8 still drunk. so i fell back asleep. and here i am. i missed mock rock practice cuz i didnt have a ride and my mom was being a bia bia. i know everything anyway. we have practice 4 days in a row next week, im sure we'll be fine!
im sore and just like...whoa. interesting night. my leg hurts...
that is all
wow look what i found from last night...
Necola321 (1:02:56 AM): Dan
Necola321 (1:02:56 AM): are you ok
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:00 AM): niiep]
Necola321 (1:03:08 AM): how was shane
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:18 AM): hes fine i suppose
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:24 AM): were still goin tomorrow
Necola321 (1:03:29 AM): thats good
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:50 AM): i hat ehim
Necola321 (1:03:54 AM): why
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:04:58 AM): cuz
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:05:01 AM): hes nice
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:05:08 AM): but its not wahat i expected
Necola321 (1:05:26 AM): what did u expect
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:05:30 AM): perfection
Necola321 (1:05:49 AM): ic lol
well bills dad came home and so we left and we went to jake kesslers. i called becky bohn to tell her to go but i dont think she did. the place was packed! taimour kinda pushed me into the bathroom when he was saying hi! LOL i fell....hehehe and i went upstairs and im in the kitchen and lori nicole and michelle and maybe even amanda come up and are like...shanes here! i was like..huh? LOL and he came up and said hi and we started talking. he was smoking! not that i cared, cuz i dont care if people smoke, no big deal...but he lied about it. and i knew he'd been drinking cuz he told me he only smokes when he drinks....soo yeah. again, he lied. i dont know why he just didnt tell me he did that stuff, cuz i told him i do. he called me a hypocrite! i was like...i am not...im not mad that your doing it, im mad cuz u lied about doing it. so that kinda makes him the hypocrite cuz he was like..that stuff dumb...and hes doing it too! ahhh. anyway..so we were sitting at the table for who knows how long talking. and i was crying cuz i was upset about stuff. but it wasnt an out of control cry, just a weeping one. like...tears falling every once in a while... i was sad. then big W gets there w/ jim hill. jim called me a gangsta cuz i was drinking right from the 5th, i wouldnt of but i didnt have anything to mix it with...lol so down it went straight. W offered to call jimmy hughes just for me, to make me feel better! i dont remember what i said, but i did flick them off at one point..whoops. oh well, its all good. anyway, i was still talking to shane after W and jim went away. he was like, wanna go outside? so i said, sure. and we went to walk around the block or something. i almost slipped on ice. we were talking, actually about a lot of personal stuff. lori nicole and amanda left, me and michelle stayed. W took her home and shane said he would take me home....sooo we get in his car and talk for a while too. lots of stuff came out about how i feel about him and other stuff too. but im not worried about things getting weird at all...cuz I'm me, the master of keeping things normal after certain things get said or happen. becuz i dont attach...thats the key. so then he started driving to take me home. i remember getting mad and trying to get out at a red light, but i couldnt open the door fast enough after unlocking it, cuz he kept relocking it. heh. then we get to my driveway and were still talking...and hes like, im gonna go to your door and tell your mom what youve been doing! and i was like no! and he got out and i got out and pushed him back to his car lol. eeeks i was really drunk. i had to pee so bad! so i said bye to shane and were still gonna go out tonight, just friends. no date. that was established lol. no weirdness, cuz i wont let there be. :)
so i came in and went potty and i called david, no one answered, so then i called lori. i dont kno what we tlaked about. then i called um...sweat but i was in a good mood. not sad or anything. well i kinda tried to apologize. but its hard to when you dont really mean it. i dunno. the last thing he said was something like...i have to do this i know you'll understand and he hung up on me. i felt like crying for like 2 seconds and then i just hung up the phone and layed in bed for like a minute sad and then i didnt really feel bad about anything so i went to sleep. i woke up at like 8 still drunk. so i fell back asleep. and here i am. i missed mock rock practice cuz i didnt have a ride and my mom was being a bia bia. i know everything anyway. we have practice 4 days in a row next week, im sure we'll be fine!
im sore and just like...whoa. interesting night. my leg hurts...
that is all
wow look what i found from last night...
Necola321 (1:02:56 AM): Dan
Necola321 (1:02:56 AM): are you ok
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:00 AM): niiep]
Necola321 (1:03:08 AM): how was shane
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:18 AM): hes fine i suppose
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:24 AM): were still goin tomorrow
Necola321 (1:03:29 AM): thats good
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:03:50 AM): i hat ehim
Necola321 (1:03:54 AM): why
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:04:58 AM): cuz
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:05:01 AM): hes nice
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:05:08 AM): but its not wahat i expected
Necola321 (1:05:26 AM): what did u expect
BriLLiaNtMysTaKe (1:05:30 AM): perfection
Necola321 (1:05:49 AM): ic lol