Fuck you sleep
I havent slept in a couple of days. This morning at 6 am I had the pleasure of acctually falling a sleep and dreaming. Wow. Yes score. I had two dreams. One I semi remember the other was shit. Im never going to sleep because of it again.
First it started so sweet. I was meeting up with Ashley at the theatre downtown to see some movie. It was around 8 pm and I was waiting for her. So I look around for her and finially see her. Shes walking with this other guy and she has her arm around him and he has his arm around her. At first im like, oh she brought a guy friend to a our date. I dint care as long as I got to see her. I walked up to her, gave her a hug and she pushed me away. Im thinking, did I do something wrong? She looks at me and says"Im sorry this isent going to work out." I said "What isent?" She looked at me smiled "Us." I said "Why?" As I waited for she put both arms around that guy and then kissed him. She said "Hes just so much hotter then you and hes just a better person." Time froze in my dream. I dint know what just happend. It all took me by such a suprize. I wanted to break down. I looked her in the eyes and just told her the truth. I told her that ive never felt this way for anyone. That i truly loved her with soul and body. I told her that in a relationship a person does best whats for the other, so they can be truly happy. She seemend so happy with this guy. She was laughing and smiling. Her eyes were glitering. I could tell she dint want me. So since she was out of this realtionship and i wasent, I did the only thing I could to make her happy. Just for the last time. So I let her go and all the fun times we had. I dint fight, you cant make a person fall in love with you. They like who they like. It was a battle I coulnt win. As they walked away she hit his butt like she used to do to me. I was envious, so madd , so jelous. Im never jelous. There went the best girl in the world. All I could say was "Youre happy. I wish you the best. I just wished i could of kissed you one last time." They walked in the movie theatre and I dint see her again. Then it started to rain really hard, as i walked for some reason john lennon - jelous guy was playing. I just thought "what did i do wrong?" As i was walking there were girls waiting for me with open arms telling me that theyll be my girlfriend. I just passed them. I dint want anyone one else. There is only one ashley. If i cant have her then i dont want anyone else. She truly is the best person in the universe. As I crossed the street I got hit by a car. Then i awoke in the hospital. The doctor told me that I was in a coma for 3 months. He told me that ill never be able to walk, not play the guitar. He also said that no one came to visit me during those 3 months and that everyone forgot about me. I just layed in the bed in sielence. The nurse came to pick me up and threw me in a wheelchair. She took me outside and just dumped me on the street. She said no one cares about me. I was laying there on the street and people were walking over me like pavement. I felt dead inside. Then someone picked me up and i looked up. It was freaking john lennon. He said " You look like a faggot laying there on the ground. Youre not a quiter. Just keep going." I just felt a tear go down my cheek.
Thats when I woke up. I was just laying there for an hour. Freaking big ouchie man.
A couple of hours later Ashley called me. She told me she loved me. I almost freaking died in happieness. YES!
I dont want to sleep ever again. What i just dreamnt were my biggest fears in life. I hope it dosent happen again.
First it started so sweet. I was meeting up with Ashley at the theatre downtown to see some movie. It was around 8 pm and I was waiting for her. So I look around for her and finially see her. Shes walking with this other guy and she has her arm around him and he has his arm around her. At first im like, oh she brought a guy friend to a our date. I dint care as long as I got to see her. I walked up to her, gave her a hug and she pushed me away. Im thinking, did I do something wrong? She looks at me and says"Im sorry this isent going to work out." I said "What isent?" She looked at me smiled "Us." I said "Why?" As I waited for she put both arms around that guy and then kissed him. She said "Hes just so much hotter then you and hes just a better person." Time froze in my dream. I dint know what just happend. It all took me by such a suprize. I wanted to break down. I looked her in the eyes and just told her the truth. I told her that ive never felt this way for anyone. That i truly loved her with soul and body. I told her that in a relationship a person does best whats for the other, so they can be truly happy. She seemend so happy with this guy. She was laughing and smiling. Her eyes were glitering. I could tell she dint want me. So since she was out of this realtionship and i wasent, I did the only thing I could to make her happy. Just for the last time. So I let her go and all the fun times we had. I dint fight, you cant make a person fall in love with you. They like who they like. It was a battle I coulnt win. As they walked away she hit his butt like she used to do to me. I was envious, so madd , so jelous. Im never jelous. There went the best girl in the world. All I could say was "Youre happy. I wish you the best. I just wished i could of kissed you one last time." They walked in the movie theatre and I dint see her again. Then it started to rain really hard, as i walked for some reason john lennon - jelous guy was playing. I just thought "what did i do wrong?" As i was walking there were girls waiting for me with open arms telling me that theyll be my girlfriend. I just passed them. I dint want anyone one else. There is only one ashley. If i cant have her then i dont want anyone else. She truly is the best person in the universe. As I crossed the street I got hit by a car. Then i awoke in the hospital. The doctor told me that I was in a coma for 3 months. He told me that ill never be able to walk, not play the guitar. He also said that no one came to visit me during those 3 months and that everyone forgot about me. I just layed in the bed in sielence. The nurse came to pick me up and threw me in a wheelchair. She took me outside and just dumped me on the street. She said no one cares about me. I was laying there on the street and people were walking over me like pavement. I felt dead inside. Then someone picked me up and i looked up. It was freaking john lennon. He said " You look like a faggot laying there on the ground. Youre not a quiter. Just keep going." I just felt a tear go down my cheek.
Thats when I woke up. I was just laying there for an hour. Freaking big ouchie man.
A couple of hours later Ashley called me. She told me she loved me. I almost freaking died in happieness. YES!
I dont want to sleep ever again. What i just dreamnt were my biggest fears in life. I hope it dosent happen again.