40 layers of bullshit...
i just slept for 12 hours, and i feel like i didn't sleep at all. today is gonna be one of those where i physically can't keep myself from telling people to fuck off. i feel like ive been abandoned by all. ever have one of those moments where you think the world is conspiring against you? i thought 2 weeks ago had me covered on the conspiracy front for a while, but that wasn't as big of a deal as i thought, so i think this might be the real thing.
im sick of doubting people. that can't be escaped. doubt is something you learn, something that comes only from expierance. we doubt because we have reason, or because actions of the past hurt so much that we brace ourselves for the future. did he give YOU a reason to doubt? (i know you're reading this, just answer the question) he gave me one, but we're talking about you now. think very carefully.
next. let me clarify, and i guess this can apply to any number of situations. i am single. i want to be single. i don't want him back, nor have i wanted him back since the incident. i miss him, he was my buddy, of course i miss him. but he's not who i thought he was, and thats fine, it was a mistake, its in the past. i'm over it. really. i wish you two the best, from the bottom of my heart. i would love to talk to him, but not about the past 10 months. just about now. "hey, im alive" would be enough for me. i will never stop caring.
moving on again. i can't begin to say how hurt i am from the behavior of certian people yesterday/last night. i hate stupid decisions just about as much as i hate asshole guys, and yesterday was filled with both. i hope youre alive this morning.
once again, i think my other half has disappeared. im not really sure where shes gone off to, but im starting to feel like im being avoided. not sure what's going on. but clue me in, i really miss you.
grrrr i still don't feel better, but i said somethings i really needed to say. i need a vacation like you wouldn't believe. i need my daddy and a big hug. sushi in 2 hours is a start. getting rid of this homework would help.
xoxo kel
im sick of doubting people. that can't be escaped. doubt is something you learn, something that comes only from expierance. we doubt because we have reason, or because actions of the past hurt so much that we brace ourselves for the future. did he give YOU a reason to doubt? (i know you're reading this, just answer the question) he gave me one, but we're talking about you now. think very carefully.
next. let me clarify, and i guess this can apply to any number of situations. i am single. i want to be single. i don't want him back, nor have i wanted him back since the incident. i miss him, he was my buddy, of course i miss him. but he's not who i thought he was, and thats fine, it was a mistake, its in the past. i'm over it. really. i wish you two the best, from the bottom of my heart. i would love to talk to him, but not about the past 10 months. just about now. "hey, im alive" would be enough for me. i will never stop caring.
moving on again. i can't begin to say how hurt i am from the behavior of certian people yesterday/last night. i hate stupid decisions just about as much as i hate asshole guys, and yesterday was filled with both. i hope youre alive this morning.
once again, i think my other half has disappeared. im not really sure where shes gone off to, but im starting to feel like im being avoided. not sure what's going on. but clue me in, i really miss you.
grrrr i still don't feel better, but i said somethings i really needed to say. i need a vacation like you wouldn't believe. i need my daddy and a big hug. sushi in 2 hours is a start. getting rid of this homework would help.
xoxo kel