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[kleinst]

What is the matter with me? well, im selfish and stupid, for starters. I make bad decisions that lead to good decisions that cause bad decisions again. Its a vicious cycle. I am throwing away a good thing that could turn out to be spectacular. On the one hand, i am happy and feel good. On the other hand, i feel sullen and forelorn

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im sorry :(

[mluckyb85]

im sorry, i dont mean to tear you apart. im hurt, and alone, and you wont see me. this is hard b/c everything was amazing. before i left to work that night we were lying it bed, laughing, quizzing you for your anatomy test... we were happy. after work we were broken up. im confused and overwhelmed. im sorry i pressured you. im sorry i made you feel worse. im sorry for not being strong enough to keep my mouth shut. but im scared. im afraid if i keep quiet then i'll be left out by default. out of sight out of mind. im sorry. i'll keep quiet. i'll wait for you. i'll wait for you to decide. take all the time you need. you've done nothing wrong. you are doing the best that you can and i know that. i know...
forgive me for making this harder on you. i want you to be happy. i dont want to see you this way. i dont want to see your stressed thinking face. i want you to smile and act silly. i want you to sing and play. i want you to be yourself again, to be happy with me. i wont be the source of your pain. whatever you decide i'll accept it. no more letters. no more guilt. when you are ready, come see me... i'll be waiting

*hug*