That's all for now...
Saturday. Where to start? I'm at work. I haven't had a chance to get back to that internet cafe, although I keep meaning to. So since Thursday... After work Thursday I went home and went to bed early. I set my alarm for early, but managed to push the snooze button so many times I got up at the usual time, finished at the usual time. Went home to take a nap. Set the alarm for that, then turned it off, and went back to sleep. Woke up at 8:36am. I'm supposed to be at work by 9. I clocked in at 9:06. I can't keep doing this. My boss is going to have to write me up. Not to mention rushing like that, I forget things and feel scattered all day.
It turned out to be a good day, though. I hung out at fifth til lunch, then had a chicken quesadilla in the Pavilion Cafe. After lunch, I went to ninety-second and hung out with my friday volunteers. Several people commented on my changed look. Hair down, contacts in. I got several very nice compliments. When I told my JV's that A was 'fixing' me, they wanted to know what the next step is. I said I didn't know, and to ask S. They called, and tried, but they got the message hopelessly garbled. These children are awful at the telephone game. They did think that it was funny that A told me to do something and I just did it. But hey, fixing me may be her project, but I'm the one who's going to benefit, right? Plus it's a great growing experience, learning to be more open in my appearance is teaching me to be more open in my expression of who I am.
I showed the picture I sent to A and the Monday picture to some of my older co-workers, and got some very interesting feedback. D2 said pic1 was seductive, which was not what I would have labeled it. P said it was enticing, which I like a little better. They both liked pic2 better. It's not a bad picture, I just like pic1 better. In pic2, I'm talking, or something, and my smile is lopsided. I'd have erased it, but D told me to leave it, it was fine. I think she was just tired of taking my picture. One of my JV's told the other about all the pictures of me I had on my camera phone and she said, "How conceited." But I didn't take them because I'm vain and I want to stare at myself all day, I took them to add to emails when I reply to people. And if I ever get my introspective journalistic scrapbook going it's going to be about me and my internal journey, so I'm going to need pictures of me for that. I don't think I'm self-centered to want to have good pictures. I don't think its conceited to take as many as I need to get them, deleting the others. Am I wrong here? Am I conceited?
P also said that pic1 was the better picture, just that that was not the kleahy he knew. I said maybe not, but that was who I want to be. I'm going to put that picture up on my mirror, to remind me what I'm working toward.
I ran into an old tuesday group member. His wife had their baby.
I didn't end up seeing N at all. And I didn't call her. I feel bad about that. I went home Friday and went to sleep. I wanted to stay up Saturday morning and shoot, and I didn't have the money to go out. She would have understood, especially the money part, but I should have called her.
I did go shooting this morning. I shot for an hour from thirty yards. By the end, I was actually starting to group my shots.
Tonight I'm going to S's to make dog cookies. I also have to get a basket to put my mother's day present in. Tomorrow, after papers, I'm picking up my sister for our mother's day breakfast. Then work. Then probably sleep. No, I forgot, I have to try on garb with my mother for June fair. I don't have any plans for Monday, other than meeting my friends, and Tuesday, I'm shooting with my mother in the park again. I think this time I'll take a target. And I'll be on time so we actually have time to shoot. Then I think I'll go down into Portland. Maybe Powell's. It's been awhile since I've been there.
More snags in the June Fair plans. I get paid that Friday. But not till noon. At least I wasn't responsible for the tent plans. Tadhg will be relieved to know. I'm hoping I can get someone to pick my check up and deposit it for me, so I can buy pretty things.
I'm renaming all my friends. D will now be Sparkles. D2 will be Miles. D3 will be Flightplan. D4 will be TeaTime. D5 will be Candlestickmaker. (This is why I'm renaming them. Literally half my friends names start with D. It was getting confusing for me!) My mother will be Isabel. Her husband will be Al. A will be China. P will be Confucius. S will be Fantastic.
I still haven't picked a user pic, nor come up with a better name for me. I'm going to go the meetup on May 22, but nobody will know who I am. I asked Sparkles about the baseball game thing, but she didn't answer. I forgot she was in hibernation. So I'll have to think of other things, till she comes out of her cave. Maybe I can get in one of my live events. I kind of want to see a theater play. Maybe if I find a good one, I can get China to buy the tickets for me. Student ID = Student discount.
My birthday falls on a Wednesday, and the weekend after is June Fair, so if I'm going to do anything with my family and friends it will have to be the weekend before. Maybe a Card party at Isabel's? That'd be cool. I'll see if the girls are up for it.
...and that's enough.
It turned out to be a good day, though. I hung out at fifth til lunch, then had a chicken quesadilla in the Pavilion Cafe. After lunch, I went to ninety-second and hung out with my friday volunteers. Several people commented on my changed look. Hair down, contacts in. I got several very nice compliments. When I told my JV's that A was 'fixing' me, they wanted to know what the next step is. I said I didn't know, and to ask S. They called, and tried, but they got the message hopelessly garbled. These children are awful at the telephone game. They did think that it was funny that A told me to do something and I just did it. But hey, fixing me may be her project, but I'm the one who's going to benefit, right? Plus it's a great growing experience, learning to be more open in my appearance is teaching me to be more open in my expression of who I am.
I showed the picture I sent to A and the Monday picture to some of my older co-workers, and got some very interesting feedback. D2 said pic1 was seductive, which was not what I would have labeled it. P said it was enticing, which I like a little better. They both liked pic2 better. It's not a bad picture, I just like pic1 better. In pic2, I'm talking, or something, and my smile is lopsided. I'd have erased it, but D told me to leave it, it was fine. I think she was just tired of taking my picture. One of my JV's told the other about all the pictures of me I had on my camera phone and she said, "How conceited." But I didn't take them because I'm vain and I want to stare at myself all day, I took them to add to emails when I reply to people. And if I ever get my introspective journalistic scrapbook going it's going to be about me and my internal journey, so I'm going to need pictures of me for that. I don't think I'm self-centered to want to have good pictures. I don't think its conceited to take as many as I need to get them, deleting the others. Am I wrong here? Am I conceited?
P also said that pic1 was the better picture, just that that was not the kleahy he knew. I said maybe not, but that was who I want to be. I'm going to put that picture up on my mirror, to remind me what I'm working toward.
I ran into an old tuesday group member. His wife had their baby.
I didn't end up seeing N at all. And I didn't call her. I feel bad about that. I went home Friday and went to sleep. I wanted to stay up Saturday morning and shoot, and I didn't have the money to go out. She would have understood, especially the money part, but I should have called her.
I did go shooting this morning. I shot for an hour from thirty yards. By the end, I was actually starting to group my shots.
Tonight I'm going to S's to make dog cookies. I also have to get a basket to put my mother's day present in. Tomorrow, after papers, I'm picking up my sister for our mother's day breakfast. Then work. Then probably sleep. No, I forgot, I have to try on garb with my mother for June fair. I don't have any plans for Monday, other than meeting my friends, and Tuesday, I'm shooting with my mother in the park again. I think this time I'll take a target. And I'll be on time so we actually have time to shoot. Then I think I'll go down into Portland. Maybe Powell's. It's been awhile since I've been there.
More snags in the June Fair plans. I get paid that Friday. But not till noon. At least I wasn't responsible for the tent plans. Tadhg will be relieved to know. I'm hoping I can get someone to pick my check up and deposit it for me, so I can buy pretty things.
I'm renaming all my friends. D will now be Sparkles. D2 will be Miles. D3 will be Flightplan. D4 will be TeaTime. D5 will be Candlestickmaker. (This is why I'm renaming them. Literally half my friends names start with D. It was getting confusing for me!) My mother will be Isabel. Her husband will be Al. A will be China. P will be Confucius. S will be Fantastic.
I still haven't picked a user pic, nor come up with a better name for me. I'm going to go the meetup on May 22, but nobody will know who I am. I asked Sparkles about the baseball game thing, but she didn't answer. I forgot she was in hibernation. So I'll have to think of other things, till she comes out of her cave. Maybe I can get in one of my live events. I kind of want to see a theater play. Maybe if I find a good one, I can get China to buy the tickets for me. Student ID = Student discount.
My birthday falls on a Wednesday, and the weekend after is June Fair, so if I'm going to do anything with my family and friends it will have to be the weekend before. Maybe a Card party at Isabel's? That'd be cool. I'll see if the girls are up for it.
...and that's enough.