is fist pumping at the local college bar not fun anymore because i don't know the words to the songs, or because it's just not fun anymore....?

I feel miserable. I have bills overdue and no way to pay. no job prospects, and nothing to show for myself. I'm stuck in a pit so deep I can barely get out of bed in the mornings. I have to end the cycle somehow. Things seem to pick up emotionally now and then, but I've got motivation problems that keep holding me back. And once those return, ( Read more... )

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE.
pretty sure i'm still having an anxiety attack...

I just woke up feeling like i was having an anxiety attack. sweating freaking out about money and things. my heart is still racing and now i'm paranoid that i'm dying. i'm fine though right? i fee light headed and shaky. i feel like i can get my heart rate down by focusing on it but then it just starts racinging again. breeaaaaaaaaathhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

my IUD is coming out. christ. there goes ten years of birth control.

Dreams are weird ( Read more... )

can't sleep. it;s primetime in the US but everyones out doing shhit on friday night! BLAH!

Can't handle much uncertainty these days ( Read more... )

Always waiting for the moment to feel right to do it. I think in general that's a good course to follow, but recently nothing's been working, so I cut it. I had decided already, but yesterday I was more ready than today. Today i tried to be as drunk as yesterday, but I was more reluctant than expected. i'm still not sure, Still not convinced ( Read more... )

Also....

mercury retrograde.

nuff said.