Loss
There are days when I feel a sense of profound loss. I think back on the things I have done, the friends that have come and gone, most often way too soon. Needlessly and stupidly but gone the same.
This weekend a very good friend told me off on a verity of things. I let it be. I did not fight back or scream or defend myself I just let it go on. I felt like he needed to vent about a lot of things. Sometimes I forget who I am, how I am. In some ways he was all to right about me. All I can say is that I am sorry if I ever hurt you.
For a very long time I have been gone, one loss after another after another and so on. I have quietly shut down made my life smaller. This heavy toll that weighs me down until I just kind of withdrew to a few good and loving people I call my family.
To one such man I would be proud to call son I think you. As much as I have tried to be good for you, help you flourish, smile laugh and cry . I say thank you. As good as you have been for me, to help me laugh and forget for a time, I thank you.
To day I hear this song. And well I feel better.
Spring is in the air. My hands are dirty from getting the flower beds ready. The new members of our home will be here soon, so I am getting ready for them I look forward to tomorrow.
Woofer the rock and he dose ROCK is getting better and has been more than kind to me, and my fucked up blood family, and is still with me. In July it will be 10 years.
Be well my friends.
This weekend a very good friend told me off on a verity of things. I let it be. I did not fight back or scream or defend myself I just let it go on. I felt like he needed to vent about a lot of things. Sometimes I forget who I am, how I am. In some ways he was all to right about me. All I can say is that I am sorry if I ever hurt you.
For a very long time I have been gone, one loss after another after another and so on. I have quietly shut down made my life smaller. This heavy toll that weighs me down until I just kind of withdrew to a few good and loving people I call my family.
To one such man I would be proud to call son I think you. As much as I have tried to be good for you, help you flourish, smile laugh and cry . I say thank you. As good as you have been for me, to help me laugh and forget for a time, I thank you.
To day I hear this song. And well I feel better.
Click to viewSpring is in the air. My hands are dirty from getting the flower beds ready. The new members of our home will be here soon, so I am getting ready for them I look forward to tomorrow.
Woofer the rock and he dose ROCK is getting better and has been more than kind to me, and my fucked up blood family, and is still with me. In July it will be 10 years.
Be well my friends.