Apr 15, 2008 18:31
So things are going strangely smoothly. Despite being countinually down on the number of people who work with me...i keep on trucking. And some how im enjoying it. i keep busy all day long and always have something to do and thus the day passes quickly. It seems like it just passes in a daze and its all good. how weird.
Oddly enough ive spent every day for the past month or so with Chris...and it hasnt bothered me or him in the least. It's odd to be able to see him so much and not have him annoyed at me. My emotions are finally started to emerge and im happy to see/feel them. i was begining to get worried that a part of me was never really going to get over anything and i was gonna be stuck in a rut.
He really is a wonderful guy and he proves more and more with each passing day how much he loves me and how great he truely is. I cry in his arms and instead of him getting angry he holds me even more gently, envelops me in his warmth and lets me drift off. ive slept better and i realise i havent really been depressed anymore. I enjoy his company and he fulfills my needs selflessly. I am comforted in his presence and calm. i dont really hold anything back because he wouldnt want me too. im just happy.
Im still insecure but happy.
hes slowely changing that too. :)
umm there was more i was gonna write...but i guess i'll leave that for another day.