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I never know what to do. The people that I really think are the good ones in my life don't care about me at all and those that care about me are just being fake or using me...and yet that's all I can get. I keep telling myself that you are a good person and people care about me, but the truth is hard and I know the truth I just wish so much that I didn't. Sometimes I wish I could go back in the day to the times that I was naive...although there wasn't much of that. I was forced to grow up and realize exactly how horrible this world can be. I envy those people that still believe in things like Santa, true love, trust and honesty. I try with all my heart to still believe in those things, but I haven't for a long time and I know that I never will again. Someday all the pain will go away, someday I will know what true happiness and love is, I just think that isn't coming till I leave this earth. I know all my entries are so depressing, but those that really know me know that this is who I am. And those that don't really know me...why the fuck are you wasting your time reading this depressing shit!?! Peace, I'm out!