I'm so sorry
Right now I just feel like crying, not that anyone really cares. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you and I know that you will never believe me, I wouldn't, but I don't believe many people. But no matter what you think I know what I feel in my heart. We went thru so much and I would take everything I have now to have you back. At many times in my life you were all I had. I don't even know if you cared, but no matter how you felt I felt you there and sometimes that's all I needed. I'm not as eloquent with words as you are, but I think I am making my point, not that anyone knows what I am talking about and that's fine with me. You are such an awesome person. You will never know how lucky you are just to have people that care about you even though you don't care for them back. I don't know what happened, but I do know that I am sorry. Maybe someday you will forgive me, and I'm not asking for you to tell me or anything. Just forgive me in your heart someday and that's all that really matters. I wish you all the best for the rest of your life...I'll always be jealous that you are loved in a world of so much hate.
I realize that no one is going to understand that, but I had to get it out. I have had so much loss in my life and I only seem to lose more as time goes on. I just can't do anything right.
I realize that no one is going to understand that, but I had to get it out. I have had so much loss in my life and I only seem to lose more as time goes on. I just can't do anything right.