wow
today i had the most incredible reiki/theta session with the reiki master who did my level 1 attunement. i had at least three huge emotional releases, one of which i had no clue was even an issue for me. that was kind of strange. you know, there's the stuff i know is an issue, but this was completely out of the blue. that doesn't happen very often at this point - usually it's more like, i can't believe after all this time, this is still an issue. one thing i've noticed/realized - while i can do a lot on myself, sometimes it helps to have somebody else doing the work who has some emotional distance.
i kind of wished the session was taped because i know i don't remember on a conscious level everything that was significant, but i trust that i will remember things as i need to and that on a subconscious level the changes are being integrated. at the end of that hour, i felt like i'd been on a lengthy journey - think the odyssey for instance. it was indescribable, so i don't know why i'm trying to describe it, and definitely drives home the point that time and space are relative.
i'd been feeling a bit discouraged lately, so the short version of my intention for the session involved rediscovering that feeling of being excited about life. i came out of there with a strong sense of purpose and also the joy that has been eluding me lately. i suppose the true test will be when i wake up tomorrow morning, as one of the things that has been so exhausting lately is that i've been so lacking in enthusiasm when i wake up in the morning. i have faith that tomorrow will be different, at least if how i feel now has anything to do with it.
i also have a new perspective on the disappointment i've felt because my client pool seems pretty dry at the moment. people have to come to it in their own time, and i have to trust that process. i make myself available and if somebody expresses interest, i offer appointment times, but indicating their readiness by closing that last bit of distance and committing to an appointment is up to them.
this evening, i managed to buckle down and write a bit on one of my wips and also made some minor revisions to the dark ss/hg i wrote for hpcon_envy , so there's some progress on that front.
happy mother's day to the mothers on my f-list, and happy unmother's day to the rest of us. :D
i kind of wished the session was taped because i know i don't remember on a conscious level everything that was significant, but i trust that i will remember things as i need to and that on a subconscious level the changes are being integrated. at the end of that hour, i felt like i'd been on a lengthy journey - think the odyssey for instance. it was indescribable, so i don't know why i'm trying to describe it, and definitely drives home the point that time and space are relative.
i'd been feeling a bit discouraged lately, so the short version of my intention for the session involved rediscovering that feeling of being excited about life. i came out of there with a strong sense of purpose and also the joy that has been eluding me lately. i suppose the true test will be when i wake up tomorrow morning, as one of the things that has been so exhausting lately is that i've been so lacking in enthusiasm when i wake up in the morning. i have faith that tomorrow will be different, at least if how i feel now has anything to do with it.
i also have a new perspective on the disappointment i've felt because my client pool seems pretty dry at the moment. people have to come to it in their own time, and i have to trust that process. i make myself available and if somebody expresses interest, i offer appointment times, but indicating their readiness by closing that last bit of distance and committing to an appointment is up to them.
this evening, i managed to buckle down and write a bit on one of my wips and also made some minor revisions to the dark ss/hg i wrote for hpcon_envy , so there's some progress on that front.
happy mother's day to the mothers on my f-list, and happy unmother's day to the rest of us. :D