If you wanna talk for hours, just go ahead now...
So, I haven't updated in forever. I guess I've just been too busy to even begin to think about updating. I always have something in my mind that I think would make a slightly interesting post, but then I never actually sit down and right it.
Life has been really good to me lately. The events in my life have either made me stronger and slightly wiser, or have made me incredibly happy. Sometimes both. Take for instance, two Thursdays ago. I worked that day, and was trying to see Tim all before class that afternoon. Coming home from class I again tried knocking on his door and got absolutely nowhere, so I ended up going out with Ethan. Apparently Tim tried to see me while I was gone, and I think something in his head clicked that I'd not always be available to hang out with. He and I have spent the greater portion of the last week together, and I've really enjoyed it. Part of me missed our time together since he was so busy with the website. He still IS really busy with it, but since another programmer is taking his own sweet time and Austin decided to delay launching it, he has more time for himself and (consequently) us.
I feel so silly talking about this, because I always do, but I don't remember the last time I enjoyed being with someone so much. It sounds utterly ridiculous, but even when I was with Kyle, I thought I was lucky because I had something a lot of other people envied. With Tim, I don't care if anyone is envious of me because I already know I'm lucky. It's silly, but I seriously would do anything for him. We have our rough patches, but when we do fight it's about real issues and we never seem to stay mad at each other long. It's not like we're having petty disagreements every day and holding grudges; I couldn't stand that if it were the case.
Tuesday night into Wednesday morning was indescribly amazing. I ended up sleeping downstairs in Tim's apartment, and we spent a good hour and a half after waking up just laughing and talking. I couldn't remember when the last time we really talked was, and it just felt so right. Then last night he invited me to sleep downstairs again, and he actually fell asleep for the entire night. That kicked ass, especially since he's been working usually during the night, so even if I sleep downstairs I rarely have been actually sleeping with him (though he was really cute and always coming in to check on me or kiss me...)
I guess I'm just feeling very grateful nowadays. I don't know what I did to deserve such an awesome partner, or the incredible friends I have that have been so supportive of me the last few months. I like knowing that I'm not relying on anyone but myself.
I think I'm starting to get a better understanding of taichi as well. Though it's not understanding on a intellectual level, because I really don't have adequate words to describe it. I can feel it though, and I'm starting to trust my intuition about things more. It's funny how well you can read people if you just let your listening energy take over. Tuina classes are going amazingly well; I practiced some on a co-worker, and she's still thanking me for it and telling me that while it wasn't the deep tissue massage she was looking for, I helped her on a more spiritual level. That was a huge compliment for me. We also had a really interesting practice session at Ethan's house, and after Ethan worked on me and basically led me into a deep meditation, I connected with my friend Rich in a totally unexpected way. I was a bit dazed afterwards, and slightly light-headed, so I laid down on Ethan's super comfy couch and turned my body so it was facing the back of the couch. Ethan started working on Rich, though I wasn't aware of it at the time. Suddenly, my breathing got really deep, too deep in fact for my lungs, and my heart beat was racing like it was while Ethan was working on me. I freaked out, and flipped onto my otherside so I could talk to him about it and make sure everything was ok. Before I could even look at Ethan, I noticed that Rich's heartbeat and breathing were the same as my own; basically I was feeling everything he was feeling. With that realization, I relaxed my own (and subsequently Rich's) breathing and concentrated on him as much as I could. Afterwards, Rich came up to me and told me that he could feel me working on him even though I hadn't moved from my spot on the couch more than 5 feet away from him. It was a pretty nifty experience that I can't rightly explain.
Tonight will be another wonderful night spent downstairs cuddling with Tim. =)
This fall is turning out to be very good. Very good indeed.
Life has been really good to me lately. The events in my life have either made me stronger and slightly wiser, or have made me incredibly happy. Sometimes both. Take for instance, two Thursdays ago. I worked that day, and was trying to see Tim all before class that afternoon. Coming home from class I again tried knocking on his door and got absolutely nowhere, so I ended up going out with Ethan. Apparently Tim tried to see me while I was gone, and I think something in his head clicked that I'd not always be available to hang out with. He and I have spent the greater portion of the last week together, and I've really enjoyed it. Part of me missed our time together since he was so busy with the website. He still IS really busy with it, but since another programmer is taking his own sweet time and Austin decided to delay launching it, he has more time for himself and (consequently) us.
I feel so silly talking about this, because I always do, but I don't remember the last time I enjoyed being with someone so much. It sounds utterly ridiculous, but even when I was with Kyle, I thought I was lucky because I had something a lot of other people envied. With Tim, I don't care if anyone is envious of me because I already know I'm lucky. It's silly, but I seriously would do anything for him. We have our rough patches, but when we do fight it's about real issues and we never seem to stay mad at each other long. It's not like we're having petty disagreements every day and holding grudges; I couldn't stand that if it were the case.
Tuesday night into Wednesday morning was indescribly amazing. I ended up sleeping downstairs in Tim's apartment, and we spent a good hour and a half after waking up just laughing and talking. I couldn't remember when the last time we really talked was, and it just felt so right. Then last night he invited me to sleep downstairs again, and he actually fell asleep for the entire night. That kicked ass, especially since he's been working usually during the night, so even if I sleep downstairs I rarely have been actually sleeping with him (though he was really cute and always coming in to check on me or kiss me...)
I guess I'm just feeling very grateful nowadays. I don't know what I did to deserve such an awesome partner, or the incredible friends I have that have been so supportive of me the last few months. I like knowing that I'm not relying on anyone but myself.
I think I'm starting to get a better understanding of taichi as well. Though it's not understanding on a intellectual level, because I really don't have adequate words to describe it. I can feel it though, and I'm starting to trust my intuition about things more. It's funny how well you can read people if you just let your listening energy take over. Tuina classes are going amazingly well; I practiced some on a co-worker, and she's still thanking me for it and telling me that while it wasn't the deep tissue massage she was looking for, I helped her on a more spiritual level. That was a huge compliment for me. We also had a really interesting practice session at Ethan's house, and after Ethan worked on me and basically led me into a deep meditation, I connected with my friend Rich in a totally unexpected way. I was a bit dazed afterwards, and slightly light-headed, so I laid down on Ethan's super comfy couch and turned my body so it was facing the back of the couch. Ethan started working on Rich, though I wasn't aware of it at the time. Suddenly, my breathing got really deep, too deep in fact for my lungs, and my heart beat was racing like it was while Ethan was working on me. I freaked out, and flipped onto my otherside so I could talk to him about it and make sure everything was ok. Before I could even look at Ethan, I noticed that Rich's heartbeat and breathing were the same as my own; basically I was feeling everything he was feeling. With that realization, I relaxed my own (and subsequently Rich's) breathing and concentrated on him as much as I could. Afterwards, Rich came up to me and told me that he could feel me working on him even though I hadn't moved from my spot on the couch more than 5 feet away from him. It was a pretty nifty experience that I can't rightly explain.
Tonight will be another wonderful night spent downstairs cuddling with Tim. =)
This fall is turning out to be very good. Very good indeed.