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I didn't know things could get so bad in this place. This week has just been... I can't even begin to describe it. First of all that day of - what was it? Lust? And I... Bartimaeus and Faye. The second time for both of them. That's four curses now that have made me... Thank God I was enough in my right mind to turn down Ptolemy. If we'd... I don't know what I'd do to myself if I hurt him like that.
Then the whole City became utter chaos. I've been mostly unaffected, but I've seen everyone else - my friends - seem them hurt themselves and each other. There was so much blood. And Jas was... out of his mind. I thought he was going to kill me.
I promised Ptolemy I'd return to our world when he's ready, to carry on his work, if only for a little while. I know I have to do it, I don't have a choice, this could save so many people but I -- I'm afraid. Even after everything that's happened here I don't want to leave this place. I don't want to leave...
...Nathaniel.
Christ, Nathaniel.
He was... he hurt people, tried to kill people. What he did to Faye was... I can't... I just can't understand it, can't believe it. He tried to kill me. At least three times, maybe more, I lost count. His attacks would have killed me, if it weren't for my resilience to his magic. Had it been anyone but me... they would be burnt to death. And he wouldn't have regretted it. Not for a second.
He's back to normal now, he's hurt, I want to help him, but I... it's hard. Too hard. What he did to Faye... I know it wasn't him, that it wasn't his fault, but I can't stop looking at him and only seeing Mandrake, and see him destroy everything I care about. Just like back home. I think he's slipping, I really do. How much of the last two days was a curse? If he turns again, I'll have to... stop him. But I... I don't know if I could... I love him too much to kill him. Even if it means he kills...
I think that round of curses is over now. It had bloody better be. I'm one big bruise, and I'm tired so tired - but I know other people Faye, Nathaniel are worse. This whole thing... it's ridiculous. And then to top it all off, I think... I think she's back. If that bitch tries to hurt anyone, I...
This has really been the week to end all weeks.
And if anyone needs me, I won't be in my flat I can't stay there - I'll be staying with Faye for a couple of days.
((ooc: strikes hackable.))
Then the whole City became utter chaos. I've been mostly unaffected, but I've seen everyone else - my friends - seem them hurt themselves and each other. There was so much blood. And Jas was... out of his mind. I thought he was going to kill me.
I promised Ptolemy I'd return to our world when he's ready, to carry on his work, if only for a little while. I know I have to do it, I don't have a choice, this could save so many people but I -- I'm afraid. Even after everything that's happened here I don't want to leave this place. I don't want to leave...
...Nathaniel.
Christ, Nathaniel.
He was... he hurt people, tried to kill people. What he did to Faye was... I can't... I just can't understand it, can't believe it. He tried to kill me. At least three times, maybe more, I lost count. His attacks would have killed me, if it weren't for my resilience to his magic. Had it been anyone but me... they would be burnt to death. And he wouldn't have regretted it. Not for a second.
He's back to normal now, he's hurt, I want to help him, but I... it's hard. Too hard. What he did to Faye... I know it wasn't him, that it wasn't his fault, but I can't stop looking at him and only seeing Mandrake, and see him destroy everything I care about. Just like back home. I think he's slipping, I really do. How much of the last two days was a curse? If he turns again, I'll have to... stop him. But I... I don't know if I could... I love him too much to kill him. Even if it means he kills...
I think that round of curses is over now. It had bloody better be. I'm one big bruise, and I'm tired so tired - but I know other people Faye, Nathaniel are worse. This whole thing... it's ridiculous. And then to top it all off, I think... I think she's back. If that bitch tries to hurt anyone, I...
This has really been the week to end all weeks.
And if anyone needs me, I won't be in my flat I can't stay there - I'll be staying with Faye for a couple of days.
((ooc: strikes hackable.))