Private (well, not so much anymore)
So I went to the doctor yesterday for a check-in regarding my anti-depresants/anxiety meds. I told him I was backsliding a little and I thought it may be the "winter blues", but that I had an anxiety attack last Tuesday (first one since my surgery). He actually said I am doing pretty good on the Klonopin (12 pills left from the 30 he prescribed in Sept.) I was a little surprised because I definitely have been using more, at least a couple of times a week. I really am not sure what could be causing it. I have been reading in my Feeling Good book quite a bit, and I think I am learning to cope better. I think the problem with the anxiety is that the thoughts come too fast to even separate them out. They're all jumbled together and I can't think straight. I may try the other workbook I got, that one deals exclusively with anxiety.
I found out that I have gained 13 pounds. I really thought that I had maxed out my ability to gain more weight, but I guess not. I am not sure how I feel about it. I mostly am frustrated that my pants are tight, and I kinda want to lose at least a few pounds so I don't have to buy new pants and try to figure out a whole new size. Hopefully once the weather warms up and I can start running I will at least get a little leaner so my pants will fit. I really don't want to lose more than those 13 pounds.
Ee gads. Just saying I wanted to lose that weight almost had me in tears. Ok, guess what kittyfajitas? You will not be weighed again for MONTHS, so you might as well throw any idea of losing weight right out the window, cause you won't know if you do or don't besides how well those pants fit. So no worries, you are not going to slip into some crazy low self-esteem diet cycle. You are going to get moving and eat better because it will make you FEEL better, and that's the only reason. You are tired of being tired and achy all the time! So that's it. No reason to put it off any longer because you know it is going to feel soooo good to get moving. You can stop procrastinating now and get that body moving!
I found out that I have gained 13 pounds. I really thought that I had maxed out my ability to gain more weight, but I guess not. I am not sure how I feel about it. I mostly am frustrated that my pants are tight, and I kinda want to lose at least a few pounds so I don't have to buy new pants and try to figure out a whole new size. Hopefully once the weather warms up and I can start running I will at least get a little leaner so my pants will fit. I really don't want to lose more than those 13 pounds.
Ee gads. Just saying I wanted to lose that weight almost had me in tears. Ok, guess what kittyfajitas? You will not be weighed again for MONTHS, so you might as well throw any idea of losing weight right out the window, cause you won't know if you do or don't besides how well those pants fit. So no worries, you are not going to slip into some crazy low self-esteem diet cycle. You are going to get moving and eat better because it will make you FEEL better, and that's the only reason. You are tired of being tired and achy all the time! So that's it. No reason to put it off any longer because you know it is going to feel soooo good to get moving. You can stop procrastinating now and get that body moving!