Quarter-life crisis
A QUARTER OF MY LIFE IS BASICALLY GONE NOW.
AND I HAVE DONE JACK SHIT WITH IT.
I DID NOT STICK WITH DRAMA
I DID NOT STICK WITH CHORUS
I DID NOT LEARN HOW TO PLAY A SINGLE INSTRUMENT
I DID NOT STICK WITH DANCE.
And the stuff I do want to do, I'm barely doing because I'm just so caught up in bullshit.
I wanted to join the school band! I wanted to join colorguard!
All these things I wanted to do by the time I was 17...Be a star in a high school play, sing a solo in chorus, start a girl band, put on a dance routine for a talent show...NONE OF THESE THINGS I HAVE DONE.
I HAVE NOT USED THE PAST 17 YEARS PRODUCTIVELY AT ALL.
YEA, I'M DEFINATELY GRADUATING HIGH SCHOOL, BUT MOSTLY EVERYONE DOES THAT.
TO BE AMAZINGLY AWESOME YOU HAVE TO DO EXTRA STUFF.
What am I going to do? Publish my fucking blog?
I'm so fucking MEDIOCRE and god damn AVERAGE it fucking HURTS.
Oh dear fucking GODS
HOW AND WHEN DID I START FAILING AT LIFE?!
AND I HAVE DONE JACK SHIT WITH IT.
I DID NOT STICK WITH DRAMA
I DID NOT STICK WITH CHORUS
I DID NOT LEARN HOW TO PLAY A SINGLE INSTRUMENT
I DID NOT STICK WITH DANCE.
And the stuff I do want to do, I'm barely doing because I'm just so caught up in bullshit.
I wanted to join the school band! I wanted to join colorguard!
All these things I wanted to do by the time I was 17...Be a star in a high school play, sing a solo in chorus, start a girl band, put on a dance routine for a talent show...NONE OF THESE THINGS I HAVE DONE.
I HAVE NOT USED THE PAST 17 YEARS PRODUCTIVELY AT ALL.
YEA, I'M DEFINATELY GRADUATING HIGH SCHOOL, BUT MOSTLY EVERYONE DOES THAT.
TO BE AMAZINGLY AWESOME YOU HAVE TO DO EXTRA STUFF.
What am I going to do? Publish my fucking blog?
I'm so fucking MEDIOCRE and god damn AVERAGE it fucking HURTS.
Oh dear fucking GODS
HOW AND WHEN DID I START FAILING AT LIFE?!