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as of july first i will be a new resident at the charles dickens (tee hee) apartments on the gorge! it will be really good to get out of here, as it is so dark and small and full of memories i would rather leave behind. new apartment new beginnings! the place backs right onto the selkirk waterfront which is just beautiful and there is a pretty little park right on the property too. plus i'll actually have room for stuff like a dining room table so i can host the mini dinner parties i've been longing to for so long! dara will have to be an indoor cat, which will be hard for her after having unlimited access to the outdoors for almost 4 years. but it's what's best for her.
other than that i don't have too much to report on. i was thinking of applying to some doggie daycares (one, club dog, is right down the street from my new place) .. when i have good days (like yesterday for example), even feeling a tiny bit better is enough to set my heart dreaming of getting back to work and being able to succeed. and i really want to get back.
but i've been at my parents most of this week, because before yesterday i hadn't been doing very well at all (andrew brought me over). my mom and sister came over yesterday to drop me back off and brought beckham with them for the day trip. and i am going back over after the arc on friday for my grandparents sixtieth (!) wedding anniversary. so i feel like a bit of a child, running to my family whenever it gets too scary. but right now i seek solace wherever it can be found. sorry if this journal entry has turned into another of my somber self commiserations. i really hate to write about that part of my life but at the same time it kind of is my life right now and i'm really struggling and i don't want to hide it anymore. so it's hard to leave it out. i'm glad i have friends who will read this and try to understand. i love you all, even if i have disappeared for the time being.
i forgot to mention, i got my new place for half off the first months rent, so i am going to be renting at both places for the month of july. it might be fun, when everything is out of this place, to have a small get together. a goodbye mcclure party. i remember my housewarming party, it was a memorable one. katrina came and spouted off all those hateful things and made everyone so peeved. and i invited andrew even though i didn't know him at ALL and he came! and it made my night. and one week later we started dating. four years, man. i can't believe its been four years.
other than that i don't have too much to report on. i was thinking of applying to some doggie daycares (one, club dog, is right down the street from my new place) .. when i have good days (like yesterday for example), even feeling a tiny bit better is enough to set my heart dreaming of getting back to work and being able to succeed. and i really want to get back.
but i've been at my parents most of this week, because before yesterday i hadn't been doing very well at all (andrew brought me over). my mom and sister came over yesterday to drop me back off and brought beckham with them for the day trip. and i am going back over after the arc on friday for my grandparents sixtieth (!) wedding anniversary. so i feel like a bit of a child, running to my family whenever it gets too scary. but right now i seek solace wherever it can be found. sorry if this journal entry has turned into another of my somber self commiserations. i really hate to write about that part of my life but at the same time it kind of is my life right now and i'm really struggling and i don't want to hide it anymore. so it's hard to leave it out. i'm glad i have friends who will read this and try to understand. i love you all, even if i have disappeared for the time being.
i forgot to mention, i got my new place for half off the first months rent, so i am going to be renting at both places for the month of july. it might be fun, when everything is out of this place, to have a small get together. a goodbye mcclure party. i remember my housewarming party, it was a memorable one. katrina came and spouted off all those hateful things and made everyone so peeved. and i invited andrew even though i didn't know him at ALL and he came! and it made my night. and one week later we started dating. four years, man. i can't believe its been four years.