Whoever said empathy was a good thing should be shot...
If I were to describe my anger to you, it might turn out to be a book.
Mid-winter break fucking sucks... and here's why:
Friday I had drama which was fine, it's a normal thing, that was probably the plus of my day. I went home to rest and did so. Saturday wasn't much different though all I did was rest play WoW and what not.
Sunday is where I started to get pissed off. So essentially Meghan and I were supposed to hang out Saturday but planned on Sunday because it would be best for us. Sunday I went around looking for jobs, I mean everywhere I was looking for a job. So that took a while. Meghan didn't call at all, but I decided to call her at around 12:30. She picked up and I was like "so we're in the neighborhood do you want us to pick you up from your house?" (I thought she was at her house since she spent Friday night at Tasha's house). She told me she was still at Tasha's house and told me she was waiting for her clothes to dry. I told her to get a ride to my house then whenever she could. 2 O'clock passed around, 3, 4, then finally at like 4:45-5 she calls and tells me "Oh I'm finally at my house and I'm really tired since I spent the night at Tasha's then at Carissa's then back to Tasha's so I want to be at my house today." I understood and got a bit angry because we've been planning this for like 3 weeks and she's blown me off every single week. So I ask "well what if I go to your house?" she was all ecstatic for it and asked John (stepdad) if she could, apparently he said no. So then we were all bummed, but then she said "So what if I rest for a bit and take a nap then call you later to see if we can do stuff!" So I wait... until 10:30 at night for a call. I start crying because this is ridiculous, I mean I understand that she's still probably still asleep, but even so she could've called. It was too late to call Paulina, or anyone to hang out by the time I was done being upset so I was like "fuck it."
Monday morning, no call on any phone, nada. Monday I spent time with Eric's friends playing D&D for 8 fucking hours, I hated it no lies. So I wasted that entire day sitting on my ass.
So today Molly and I were supposed to bake, but she had a lot going on that day and could pretty much only be at my house for maybe 3 hours, so I told her "okay well I don't want you to stress out and whatever so let's do this on friday and saturday?" So that's cool. Then I called Meghan up to see if we could hang out. She was like "yeah sure after I'm done helping Hannah dye her kimono." So I wasn't as mad, still a tad bit. She calls again and says "So I should be around there at around 4 if that's alright." I said yes o course. I'm waiting on Wow and then she calls and is like
"Hannah thought I was going to stay there longer so I was wondering when your late schedule is?"
Me: "um I don't have one, but when are you planning on getting here?"
Her: "Oh like 9ish"
Me: "No *laugh* that's a bit late"
Her: "oh okay which would be better"
ME: "Meghan just call me when you're on your way"
Her tone was very "ugh I don't want to go see you"
Hang up and I call back:
Me: "Meghan, I don't want to ruin your time there so let's save it for another day"
Her: "Aww alright, I'm sorry.."
Me: "What?"
Her: "I always do this to you, and only you. I guess it's because I can trust you more but it's not good and I'm sorry."
Me: (on the verge of crying already) "ok"
Her: "I'm sorry"
Me: "Honestly Meghan I don't fucking care."
Her: "ok Kaitlyn."
*pause*
Me: "So I guess I'll let you go"\
Her: "You okay?"
Me: "No... but I'll get over it."
Her: "okay I'll see you on Thursday then"
Me: (obviously crying) "okay"
Her: "bye"
Me: "yeah..."
*click*
The sad part is... I know I'm just going to crawl back and be like "oh hi!! hahahaah" and put a fucking mask on like I usually do.
Oh I wished I could just slap that girl right now... or punch her nose... yes... punch her sounds lovely.
Yes I'm bitter, so fuck off.
Mid-winter break fucking sucks... and here's why:
Friday I had drama which was fine, it's a normal thing, that was probably the plus of my day. I went home to rest and did so. Saturday wasn't much different though all I did was rest play WoW and what not.
Sunday is where I started to get pissed off. So essentially Meghan and I were supposed to hang out Saturday but planned on Sunday because it would be best for us. Sunday I went around looking for jobs, I mean everywhere I was looking for a job. So that took a while. Meghan didn't call at all, but I decided to call her at around 12:30. She picked up and I was like "so we're in the neighborhood do you want us to pick you up from your house?" (I thought she was at her house since she spent Friday night at Tasha's house). She told me she was still at Tasha's house and told me she was waiting for her clothes to dry. I told her to get a ride to my house then whenever she could. 2 O'clock passed around, 3, 4, then finally at like 4:45-5 she calls and tells me "Oh I'm finally at my house and I'm really tired since I spent the night at Tasha's then at Carissa's then back to Tasha's so I want to be at my house today." I understood and got a bit angry because we've been planning this for like 3 weeks and she's blown me off every single week. So I ask "well what if I go to your house?" she was all ecstatic for it and asked John (stepdad) if she could, apparently he said no. So then we were all bummed, but then she said "So what if I rest for a bit and take a nap then call you later to see if we can do stuff!" So I wait... until 10:30 at night for a call. I start crying because this is ridiculous, I mean I understand that she's still probably still asleep, but even so she could've called. It was too late to call Paulina, or anyone to hang out by the time I was done being upset so I was like "fuck it."
Monday morning, no call on any phone, nada. Monday I spent time with Eric's friends playing D&D for 8 fucking hours, I hated it no lies. So I wasted that entire day sitting on my ass.
So today Molly and I were supposed to bake, but she had a lot going on that day and could pretty much only be at my house for maybe 3 hours, so I told her "okay well I don't want you to stress out and whatever so let's do this on friday and saturday?" So that's cool. Then I called Meghan up to see if we could hang out. She was like "yeah sure after I'm done helping Hannah dye her kimono." So I wasn't as mad, still a tad bit. She calls again and says "So I should be around there at around 4 if that's alright." I said yes o course. I'm waiting on Wow and then she calls and is like
"Hannah thought I was going to stay there longer so I was wondering when your late schedule is?"
Me: "um I don't have one, but when are you planning on getting here?"
Her: "Oh like 9ish"
Me: "No *laugh* that's a bit late"
Her: "oh okay which would be better"
ME: "Meghan just call me when you're on your way"
Her tone was very "ugh I don't want to go see you"
Hang up and I call back:
Me: "Meghan, I don't want to ruin your time there so let's save it for another day"
Her: "Aww alright, I'm sorry.."
Me: "What?"
Her: "I always do this to you, and only you. I guess it's because I can trust you more but it's not good and I'm sorry."
Me: (on the verge of crying already) "ok"
Her: "I'm sorry"
Me: "Honestly Meghan I don't fucking care."
Her: "ok Kaitlyn."
*pause*
Me: "So I guess I'll let you go"\
Her: "You okay?"
Me: "No... but I'll get over it."
Her: "okay I'll see you on Thursday then"
Me: (obviously crying) "okay"
Her: "bye"
Me: "yeah..."
*click*
The sad part is... I know I'm just going to crawl back and be like "oh hi!! hahahaah" and put a fucking mask on like I usually do.
Oh I wished I could just slap that girl right now... or punch her nose... yes... punch her sounds lovely.
Yes I'm bitter, so fuck off.