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I'm lonely and worried and just plain scared and what if nothing will fix it ever? I mean, there are definitely points where things feel right, especially when Zack is here. But I feel like misery is my default setting sometimes. And Zack can't be here all the time, and even when he is here he can't pay attention to me constantly to keep me from being depressed, I have to be able to pick myself up on my own and I just... can't...