I am feeling depressed again.

[kittnslave]

Ok so I am having a rough night emotionally tonight - and it is over a kind gesture... sometime sweet. And somehow that good thing made me sad ... because I guess I don't feel I deserve it and then I go into that spiral of my baby girl deserves better than what I can give. Christmas is pretty much not happening at our house - With me not working

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[kandrinchae]

((hugs))
I've been through the disability rigamaroll too with Alaric. Kids are easier, adults are harder. It really sucks. I am sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. I wish there was something I could do to help.

[kittnslave]

It is oki and thanks for the Hugs - I sometimes just have depressed moments - prolly due to a lack of sleep and actually finally crying over the fact Michael was laid off work... I just learned it is better for me to write it all down and get it out wehn I am feeling that way.

[rhemedy]

I can understand a little of what you are going though. I have Fibromyalsia and it's been really hard. The pain is so terrible every day. Currently I'm trying to find a new doctor because my current one will not prescribe narcs- Anyway, suffice it to say, I feel ya. The thing is, pain or no pain, we need to buck up if we want the kind of lives that we want. No programs, no disability, no relief... Otherwise we remain in a lifestyle that makes us sad. On the plus side, when you meet the challenge and do things even though you have pain, the benefits really outweigh the cons. Once you do get a job, you will have insurance to cover your medical expenses, it will be slow, but once you have the ball rolling it gets better and better. To the point where you can plan the Christmases you have always wanted. *hugs* You can do anything you put your mind too. You have the power.