Final chapter

[kittn]

For years now I have been hiding my thoughts and feelings from the people around me. The wonders of my emotions locked away safely only to surface as I dream..I don't even let myself acknowledge them half the time.. who am I kidding almost all the time.
Ever section of our lives has a chapter in wich it belongs to. Sooner or later each chapter closes and a new one begins.. But sometimes it feels as though each chapter opens and closes to quickly leaving us without a means to start the next. I never realized how many loose ends I was tripping over untill i attempted to tie them up.. Now im stuck with a very tangled ball of yarn that does me absolutely no good anymore.. so what now.. I throw that ball out. i am closing major chapters of my life right now.. Alot of them harder to live with than i had expected. But that will come together soon enough when the time is right i suppose. Untill then...... I have no choice but to close each chapter as I read the final pages..
Have I meantioned How very much I hate my lfe right now.. ???????
I feel like the walls are falling down around me and there isn't a DAMN thing I can do anymore.. so powerless and struck..... Damn that mac truck that came out of nowhere and broadsided me