just some words
he wants to be friends... i can accept that... i am thrilled that chris wants to be friends (he means so much more to me than he realizes and if i completely lost him in my life i would whither away)... i think my biggest fear was of just losing him completely and having to live in the house with him locking himself in his half of the house and not talking to me and all that jazz... friends i can do... im not saying it wont hurt a whole lot... but not as much as losing him completely. he is my best friend. and i am glad. thank you for that.
my last post has not been deleted, i decided to mark it private after 24 hours... give my non LJ friends at least a chance to read it before the vultures set in and began to pick at me.
i am so greatful for my friends right now. i know i have been shutting everyone out here in the past... year... but im glad for those of you who have still stood by me no matter what... you are true friends. thank you. things dont look so bleak and that is good. and i do still plan on changing and working on my issues with lying and what not. regardless what this brings, i want to be a better person.
off to get ready for class! love you all! :) and thank you again! (all of you)
my last post has not been deleted, i decided to mark it private after 24 hours... give my non LJ friends at least a chance to read it before the vultures set in and began to pick at me.
i am so greatful for my friends right now. i know i have been shutting everyone out here in the past... year... but im glad for those of you who have still stood by me no matter what... you are true friends. thank you. things dont look so bleak and that is good. and i do still plan on changing and working on my issues with lying and what not. regardless what this brings, i want to be a better person.
off to get ready for class! love you all! :) and thank you again! (all of you)