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I'm at the library. I've been hardcore studying since 4 (it's around 5:30 now) so I'm taking a little break. I shouldn't be, I shouldn't look up from that western civ stuff for two-fucking-seconds at this point but... eh. I still have 79 minutes before the test. ;)
I ran into Jeremy on my way in the library which cheered me up. I've had a really shitty couple of days. The good thing is it's been raining, so the weather has matched my mood-- which I appreiciate. Blinding sun yesterday or today would NOT have been cool. My feet itch from the rain. Wet itchiness is the worst because you can't sufficiently itch wet feet, unless you are going to dry them first, but I don't happen to have a hair dryer on me, and that might be weird anyway.
Roommate situation just SUCKS. Two people have given me permission to strangle her as of now. I just can't fucking stand the level of uptight-ness in these people. It's like all they're good for are a couple laughs and random uncalled for bitchiness. Some people just like to be pissed off. Whatever. Fuck them, mostly Heather. She thinks she's just so above everyone and everything else, I've realized. It was kinda hidden initially but it's obvious now. Some people just have nothing fucking to them.
My grandpa has cancer, mouth cancer. It's so random, and shitty, and it pisses me off. I think he'll be okay... but that was not news I was fond of hearing..
Mike comes down or invites me up all the time lately. We had the conversation about only being friends-with-benefits, baiscally, but now I'm starting to feel he would like me as an 'official' girlfriend, which confuses the hell out of me. I like him a lot, he's fun and puts me in a good mood, but I can't handle getting too close to someone. Subconciously i tell myself that it is bad, bad, bad, especially because I am only here temporarily. But I don't know.
Jeremy, Mike and Jay are just everything to me here, pretty much. There's a few others, like Maria and Jonathon, who are stable-type friends; and then there's my roommates, who I can't count on for shit. I had an awesome conversation with Jessica on Saturday night, and just like that, she flipped a switch or something and now she barely talks or says hello to me.
But i think about buffalo and the bookstore and even the shitty, shitty food and I wish I was there! But I don't know. I just don't know anything. I gotta go study. Sorry for the incomplete-ness of this entry.
I ran into Jeremy on my way in the library which cheered me up. I've had a really shitty couple of days. The good thing is it's been raining, so the weather has matched my mood-- which I appreiciate. Blinding sun yesterday or today would NOT have been cool. My feet itch from the rain. Wet itchiness is the worst because you can't sufficiently itch wet feet, unless you are going to dry them first, but I don't happen to have a hair dryer on me, and that might be weird anyway.
Roommate situation just SUCKS. Two people have given me permission to strangle her as of now. I just can't fucking stand the level of uptight-ness in these people. It's like all they're good for are a couple laughs and random uncalled for bitchiness. Some people just like to be pissed off. Whatever. Fuck them, mostly Heather. She thinks she's just so above everyone and everything else, I've realized. It was kinda hidden initially but it's obvious now. Some people just have nothing fucking to them.
My grandpa has cancer, mouth cancer. It's so random, and shitty, and it pisses me off. I think he'll be okay... but that was not news I was fond of hearing..
Mike comes down or invites me up all the time lately. We had the conversation about only being friends-with-benefits, baiscally, but now I'm starting to feel he would like me as an 'official' girlfriend, which confuses the hell out of me. I like him a lot, he's fun and puts me in a good mood, but I can't handle getting too close to someone. Subconciously i tell myself that it is bad, bad, bad, especially because I am only here temporarily. But I don't know.
Jeremy, Mike and Jay are just everything to me here, pretty much. There's a few others, like Maria and Jonathon, who are stable-type friends; and then there's my roommates, who I can't count on for shit. I had an awesome conversation with Jessica on Saturday night, and just like that, she flipped a switch or something and now she barely talks or says hello to me.
But i think about buffalo and the bookstore and even the shitty, shitty food and I wish I was there! But I don't know. I just don't know anything. I gotta go study. Sorry for the incomplete-ness of this entry.