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My summer plans are coming along, or at least being...planned. Aside from wanting to experiment with the culinary world and lounging around and studying for the sake of studying...and lounging around, I'm hoping to be productive this summer.
First, I've sent in an application to H&R Block in order to replenish my finances somewhat. Why H&R Block? It's really the only relevant place of business within walking distance from my house. I've become overdependent on public transportation since moving to San Francisco nearly two years ago, not to mention New York. Second, I'm planning on taking a class at a local college in Las Vegas in order to knock off my remaining foundation courses. Third (well, I don't know if this really counts), I'm going to the Philippines and visit my grandmother after about 5 years of not having seen her or being in the Philippines for that matter. To be honest, I'm more excited about indulging in Ilocano empanadas. >.<;;
So, I've been stuck in somewhat of a rut academically, and it's really my biggest regret. Lack of motivation, utter laziness, etc? I keep reminding myself how much time and more importantly, money is going into all of this, and yet, I somehow still find myself asking myself, "Is there any point to this? Money should not and really doesn't matter. I mean, when I die, it's not like I have to worry about it anymore." Basically, I've just been having that outlook on life. I've been contemplating about seeing a psychiatrist, not just because of my seeming lack of motivation, but about things that have been culminating to this point. The only thing issue I have with making that move is that I feel like it shows weakness and I'd have a trouble getting past that.
All in all, I am done with this semester, and I just want to go home and slow things down a bit. Life in New York goes by way too fast and I feel like I am always running out of time.
First, I've sent in an application to H&R Block in order to replenish my finances somewhat. Why H&R Block? It's really the only relevant place of business within walking distance from my house. I've become overdependent on public transportation since moving to San Francisco nearly two years ago, not to mention New York. Second, I'm planning on taking a class at a local college in Las Vegas in order to knock off my remaining foundation courses. Third (well, I don't know if this really counts), I'm going to the Philippines and visit my grandmother after about 5 years of not having seen her or being in the Philippines for that matter. To be honest, I'm more excited about indulging in Ilocano empanadas. >.<;;
So, I've been stuck in somewhat of a rut academically, and it's really my biggest regret. Lack of motivation, utter laziness, etc? I keep reminding myself how much time and more importantly, money is going into all of this, and yet, I somehow still find myself asking myself, "Is there any point to this? Money should not and really doesn't matter. I mean, when I die, it's not like I have to worry about it anymore." Basically, I've just been having that outlook on life. I've been contemplating about seeing a psychiatrist, not just because of my seeming lack of motivation, but about things that have been culminating to this point. The only thing issue I have with making that move is that I feel like it shows weakness and I'd have a trouble getting past that.
All in all, I am done with this semester, and I just want to go home and slow things down a bit. Life in New York goes by way too fast and I feel like I am always running out of time.