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so today was the horrible dicussion that i knew would turn out horrible..
"You don't want to be here. GO!" <~ Bob
I am no longer refering to Bob as my father. Right from the moment the conversation started, it turned into Jess will never think of everyone else except for herself. I apparently don't spend enough time with my family, when I am sitting on my laptop and watching tv with the family and I don't start a conversation. He specifically wanted me to fail so I could come running home just to admit he was right. He thought I was giving him attitude the entire time and it wouldn't matter what I would say, at all, because it goes in one ear and out the other.
Im not crying though..
I feel...more relieved than ever...because I can honestly say that I have pushed my bad life away and I can go and move on. Later on in the week, I am getting the rest of my things and pretending that it never happened.
My mom...and Bobby, gosh how I am going to miss them. I am going to take Bobby out on nights though just him and I. Mom, she really shocked me tonight, she tried so hard to make all of this work, and he kept telling her "just let her go!" "she is my daughter" Bob also threatned to rip up the adoption papers as well, that was sure as hell liberating he would be better off without me. I am just going to talk to my mom, she needs to realize that it is not going to be how she wants it.
I just wish that...i dont know...
i just feel.........blank
"You don't want to be here. GO!" <~ Bob
I am no longer refering to Bob as my father. Right from the moment the conversation started, it turned into Jess will never think of everyone else except for herself. I apparently don't spend enough time with my family, when I am sitting on my laptop and watching tv with the family and I don't start a conversation. He specifically wanted me to fail so I could come running home just to admit he was right. He thought I was giving him attitude the entire time and it wouldn't matter what I would say, at all, because it goes in one ear and out the other.
Im not crying though..
I feel...more relieved than ever...because I can honestly say that I have pushed my bad life away and I can go and move on. Later on in the week, I am getting the rest of my things and pretending that it never happened.
My mom...and Bobby, gosh how I am going to miss them. I am going to take Bobby out on nights though just him and I. Mom, she really shocked me tonight, she tried so hard to make all of this work, and he kept telling her "just let her go!" "she is my daughter" Bob also threatned to rip up the adoption papers as well, that was sure as hell liberating he would be better off without me. I am just going to talk to my mom, she needs to realize that it is not going to be how she wants it.
I just wish that...i dont know...
i just feel.........blank