Doctor Who - S05E09
...I think I'm broken.
Not in the "OMG they broke me ::sob::" way, which is how I think I should feel, but more in the sense that I don't really feel it at all.
Like, I think I was a lot more distraught when Rory died in Amy's Choice, even though it was kinda obvious at the time that it would be the (or at least, a) dream, so not really permanent at all.
This time I'm just. I don't feel anything? I think it's that a large part of me feels like they can't possibly leave it there. Rory dies, everyone forgets he existed except the Doctor, it just feels incomplete. Like, what was the point of bringing him along and getting to know him if he kinda never existed in the first place, so surely they're gonna fix this later on, probably as part of/at the same time as the whole crack in the wall/silence thingy. And so I'm not really sad, because they're still telling the story and I don't really believe he's gone yet.
On the other hand, a sneaky doubtful little part of me thinks that it would be pretty damn impactful if they don't fix it, and that's it. Eleven remembers but everyone else forgets and life moves on and Rory went out a hero and no one will even know because he basically never existed and that's just. !! Very much an emotional punch to the gut, which I do sometimes welcome.
I'm kinda torn between the two options, and if it's the second I should be crying like a freakin' baby right now because I freakin' love Rory, but here I am. So deep in denial it'd take an excavation team to reach me. At least for now.
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