Emo Night
Last night was a pretty emotional night for me. I don't know if I can handle 3 weeks without Crack, but it'll be a test for when he'll be on the ship for a year and a half.
If I do end up going home, I'll be away for 3 weeks max. 3 weeks isn't long, we always say, but we'll see. Alot can happen in just 3 weeks right? Its the 'trust' issue, can we trust each other not to give into temptation? I think we can, right? Well I'm sure I can trust him, its the people around him that I don't trust. Oh well, we'll see how it goes. Just have FAITH.
So anyway, the conversation went on to when he'll be going on the ship and how he'll be processing his papers in Manila before he can board. So I asked how long he'll be in Manila for, he says 6 months at the most. Wow! 6 months, that totally surprised me and I ended up crying my eyes out. 6 months then a year and a half without Crack, that'll be so depressing. He better be sure to call me, text me, email me every single day that he's away or I will kick his ass!!
Sometimes I wish I had met him sooner, but I guess God was preparing him for me. Its ok, I'm still happy that I met him and that we're together. I don't think I've ever felt this way before, its scary, but in a good way. Does that make sense?