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hey yall. sry i havent posted in a while. ive just been lazy.
u know, ive been pretty depressed and ive been beating myself up. ive also been doin alot of thinking latly, and ive come up with one conclusion to my weirdness. im in love with someone. and that person i love, i really love!
the prob is that my parents are doin everything to keep me from loveing this person. like grounding me for no reason, so i cant go out. making random rules so i cant do nething. and i hate it. i hate not being able to talk about the person i love to anyone in my family except for my Aunt!
but now ive lost him. my parents are now pushing me to go out with someone i only like as a friend!! i prob wont get him back. i wish i could. i wish alot of things. like i wish i could go back in time and start all over from the begining. do everything differently. not gotten myself in this bad path im in now.
u know, some people say that this wasnt really love. that this was just lust. i dont know. i really dont. but i cant stop thinking about what happened, and what i could have done to prevent it. and i cant stop thinking about that one person. all the time.
idk wat to do right now. i feel so lost sometimes!!
ya well thats all right now. ill ttyl
Loves
u know, ive been pretty depressed and ive been beating myself up. ive also been doin alot of thinking latly, and ive come up with one conclusion to my weirdness. im in love with someone. and that person i love, i really love!
the prob is that my parents are doin everything to keep me from loveing this person. like grounding me for no reason, so i cant go out. making random rules so i cant do nething. and i hate it. i hate not being able to talk about the person i love to anyone in my family except for my Aunt!
but now ive lost him. my parents are now pushing me to go out with someone i only like as a friend!! i prob wont get him back. i wish i could. i wish alot of things. like i wish i could go back in time and start all over from the begining. do everything differently. not gotten myself in this bad path im in now.
u know, some people say that this wasnt really love. that this was just lust. i dont know. i really dont. but i cant stop thinking about what happened, and what i could have done to prevent it. and i cant stop thinking about that one person. all the time.
idk wat to do right now. i feel so lost sometimes!!
ya well thats all right now. ill ttyl
Loves