To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
Sometimes, it is important to get into habits, or grooves, in order to promote a sense of regularity, well-being, and in order to produce consistent results. I suppose now is one of those times.
Today is Wednesday and I have a tall order to fulfill: I have to retest for my license --both written and behind-the-wheel. I am quite petrified. I admit to being a less than perfect driver.
I'm feeling very tired right now, but rather healthy. I ate a salad last night and one this morning. Also, I slept pretty well. I can't quite put my fingers on what is going on with me, but it certainly feels like change.
As of right now, I have 20 days completely sober (no drugs or alcohol). It is both liberating and frightening. I"m tired of living every moment as if I may or may not relapse. We must all learn how to live in the now.
I hope my unemployment check comes today. If not today, then definitely tomorrow. I'm a bit antsy to spend my money --even though my check has already been divided and alloted to certain things (i.e. doctor's appointments and medicine). That in itself is rather refreshing; normally, I'd be thinking of how I could convince my parents to take me to gamble.
I'm pretty happy with myself right now. Although, I must also admit to feeling strangely tired. I'm going to drink a cup of coffee and I hope it won't ruin my day.
Anyways, I've rambled enough. Happy Hump Day, ya'll.
Today is Wednesday and I have a tall order to fulfill: I have to retest for my license --both written and behind-the-wheel. I am quite petrified. I admit to being a less than perfect driver.
I'm feeling very tired right now, but rather healthy. I ate a salad last night and one this morning. Also, I slept pretty well. I can't quite put my fingers on what is going on with me, but it certainly feels like change.
As of right now, I have 20 days completely sober (no drugs or alcohol). It is both liberating and frightening. I"m tired of living every moment as if I may or may not relapse. We must all learn how to live in the now.
I hope my unemployment check comes today. If not today, then definitely tomorrow. I'm a bit antsy to spend my money --even though my check has already been divided and alloted to certain things (i.e. doctor's appointments and medicine). That in itself is rather refreshing; normally, I'd be thinking of how I could convince my parents to take me to gamble.
I'm pretty happy with myself right now. Although, I must also admit to feeling strangely tired. I'm going to drink a cup of coffee and I hope it won't ruin my day.
Anyways, I've rambled enough. Happy Hump Day, ya'll.