A dreaded sunny day
This morning I read a fb message from a friend that was honest. I appreciate that. What it boils down to: I may or may not have said a few hurtful things, and now that friend doesn't want to hang out anymore but rather, just be fb friends. Ugh. I need to work on tact and politeness, but, those arn't my first orders of business.
The first thing I have to do is work on my mental health. I will do this by working on my sobriety and attending all necessary appointments. Speaking of which, this week promises to be fairly busy. Thursday will be my reprieve from it all, and even then, I still have commitments that day, they're just in the evening.
Currently, I have broken it down to 4 keep principles:
-Keep It Simple
-Willingness
-Acceptance
-Forgiveness
The way I see it, once I get my mental health in order, I can then (and only then) truly commit myself to improving my overall life. Thus far, I have adhered to medication & vitamin rituals.
That's another thing: I spent most of my teen years & early twenties (basically) advocating a more anarchic existence. While doing this, I claimed to love the state and be a statist. Until now, I had never seen the hypocrisy of my actions. Tradition and ritual are important building blocks for anyone. After all, why look to the past? How and why do we move forward?
At this point, I would like to re-read this entry and be weary of any false dichotomies I may or may not have made.
In sum: I am re-committing myself to life & realising that these changes won't occur overnight or even in a matter of days or months, but rather, they will be permanent parts of my life. I must accept that and embrace it if I am to move forward.
Happy Easter, ya'll.
The first thing I have to do is work on my mental health. I will do this by working on my sobriety and attending all necessary appointments. Speaking of which, this week promises to be fairly busy. Thursday will be my reprieve from it all, and even then, I still have commitments that day, they're just in the evening.
Currently, I have broken it down to 4 keep principles:
-Keep It Simple
-Willingness
-Acceptance
-Forgiveness
The way I see it, once I get my mental health in order, I can then (and only then) truly commit myself to improving my overall life. Thus far, I have adhered to medication & vitamin rituals.
That's another thing: I spent most of my teen years & early twenties (basically) advocating a more anarchic existence. While doing this, I claimed to love the state and be a statist. Until now, I had never seen the hypocrisy of my actions. Tradition and ritual are important building blocks for anyone. After all, why look to the past? How and why do we move forward?
At this point, I would like to re-read this entry and be weary of any false dichotomies I may or may not have made.
In sum: I am re-committing myself to life & realising that these changes won't occur overnight or even in a matter of days or months, but rather, they will be permanent parts of my life. I must accept that and embrace it if I am to move forward.
Happy Easter, ya'll.