Nov 06, 2008 09:27
my current cocktail doesn't seem to be working anymore. I'm major depressed.
over the past few months I have stopped: watching movies, watching tv, reading, searching online, etc. all I do is sleep, listen to NPR, and occasionally go to class. my life is on loop and I hate it.
I don't have the money/time to see a therapist.
I finally told my mom I was depressed.
I'm considering withdrawing from two classes. I didn't do a paper for one (that's due today) and I've almost missed all four of my allowable absences in the other (today would be the magic number).
my hygiene has declined. I shower at most once a week. I hardly brush my teeth anymore. I do put on clean clothes, though. I feel like shit 70% of the time.
I don't know what to do. I'm tired of all the bullshit.
is there any suggestion or advice? I've tried prayer, not working. I've tried distracting myself, not working. I've tried doing things like going for a walk, not working. I'm going to talk to my parents tonight or tomorrow (after my pdoc appt). we'll see.
so, aside from going to therapy, is there much else I can try?
the skinny: I'm so depressed that I've stopped doing a lot of my favourite things, and it's only getting worse. I think I want to be put on disability. any advice?