You might sleep but you will never dream!
I know I just updated not that long ago, but I couldn't help remember the short conversation I had with Mr. Moore (my English teacher) on the way to the Jim -as he wrote it on a note that he posted on the door- for the senior class meeting. hahaha. Zack had been in there, because Moore wanted us to check in or something and so yeah. Anyways, in AP Government Mr. Corgiat has given us a "free speech wall" and Zack put up a George Orwell quotation (Some ideas are so absurd only an intellectual would believe them) and I was talking to him while Mr. Moore was escorting us out the door and said something like "Oh Zack, you're already corrupting/polluting the free speech wall!" well, that prompted Moore to interject....
Moore said free speech was for corrupting. and then it led to a brief little mention of communism as I, admittedly being facetious, said it was a great and lasting idea. (note: I do not believe in communism). anyways, he did mention something that sparked my interest and has been somewhere in my cranium all day: he said something like isn't it absurd to be paying everyone the same amount of money for different jobs? honestly, I'm not so sure it is. I felt the same way ever since I first thought about the question, and I feel that monetary equality is actually somewhat important. now, I know what you're thinking: I'm 17, what the fuck do I know about such; that, and I just admitted to my disliking of communism.
my mind has been pouring over that since it happened. I'm not sure what to make of it. there is a side of me that sees monetary equality regardless of job as essential, and there is a part of me that firmly rejects such. I also got to thinking about what my dad says Tito's theory was: you don't go to school to get paid more, you go to school to get an easier job. such is not the case in america. this prompted me, last week, to write something:
One courts academics from youth in the guise of love; it is truly in the hopes of luring, and marrying money.
is it just me, or is there a great deal of validity to that? I dunno. I feel sickened. I'm not sure what to do about it. I like freedom, but I also see it as Mr. Moore said it can be corrupted. I'm not so sure I like that. and then thinking about that makes me think about the future. life after high school. I know, I'm 17,what the hell do I know? fret not, I'll be boring, bland, fat, and middle-aged and conservative like so many others eventually. or perhaps not. can I maintain my integrity? I hope so. I know communism won't work; pure socialism has yet to be tried, to my knowledge, and perhaps it never will be.
the way I see it, since my one glimmer of optimism comes from believing in socialism, but I know it won't happen, that means I've got nothing. my only hope is that I will find someone to fall in love with, as I belief progress should come through socialism (but I know it will truly only come through war). that's my one shot left at leading a sane life. I feel horribly lonely again now. gah! why am I depressing myself?! I dunno. just, all these thoughts spilling about. yeah....
Moore said free speech was for corrupting. and then it led to a brief little mention of communism as I, admittedly being facetious, said it was a great and lasting idea. (note: I do not believe in communism). anyways, he did mention something that sparked my interest and has been somewhere in my cranium all day: he said something like isn't it absurd to be paying everyone the same amount of money for different jobs? honestly, I'm not so sure it is. I felt the same way ever since I first thought about the question, and I feel that monetary equality is actually somewhat important. now, I know what you're thinking: I'm 17, what the fuck do I know about such; that, and I just admitted to my disliking of communism.
my mind has been pouring over that since it happened. I'm not sure what to make of it. there is a side of me that sees monetary equality regardless of job as essential, and there is a part of me that firmly rejects such. I also got to thinking about what my dad says Tito's theory was: you don't go to school to get paid more, you go to school to get an easier job. such is not the case in america. this prompted me, last week, to write something:
One courts academics from youth in the guise of love; it is truly in the hopes of luring, and marrying money.
is it just me, or is there a great deal of validity to that? I dunno. I feel sickened. I'm not sure what to do about it. I like freedom, but I also see it as Mr. Moore said it can be corrupted. I'm not so sure I like that. and then thinking about that makes me think about the future. life after high school. I know, I'm 17,what the hell do I know? fret not, I'll be boring, bland, fat, and middle-aged and conservative like so many others eventually. or perhaps not. can I maintain my integrity? I hope so. I know communism won't work; pure socialism has yet to be tried, to my knowledge, and perhaps it never will be.
the way I see it, since my one glimmer of optimism comes from believing in socialism, but I know it won't happen, that means I've got nothing. my only hope is that I will find someone to fall in love with, as I belief progress should come through socialism (but I know it will truly only come through war). that's my one shot left at leading a sane life. I feel horribly lonely again now. gah! why am I depressing myself?! I dunno. just, all these thoughts spilling about. yeah....