Sick
I hate being sick...and I hate bing sick at the start of a new job even more.
I have a doctors note, but I still can't help but think it's "wrong" for me to stay home.
I can't help it.
I really really really like my new job...and I desperately afraid of leaving a bad impression. I hae never been so uptight regarding what "other people" may or may not think of me.
It's almost like I got so used to the bad times that when something good happens I become so terrified of fucking up I become beside myself.
I am making myself worse, yet I do not know how to stop.
I have a doctors note, but I still can't help but think it's "wrong" for me to stay home.
I can't help it.
I really really really like my new job...and I desperately afraid of leaving a bad impression. I hae never been so uptight regarding what "other people" may or may not think of me.
It's almost like I got so used to the bad times that when something good happens I become so terrified of fucking up I become beside myself.
I am making myself worse, yet I do not know how to stop.