What A Day.
July 24, 2009. 1:30 a.m
Dear Diary,
So my dreaded answers came in the mail today. My highly anticipated schedule came in and with came attached a full does of disappointment. Yes, my fears have came true, the school gods have blessed cursed me with having to endure Alg 2 during my first trimester of school. It would be clear to say I actually had a panic attack, for I have always feared having problems in math. Though I had some comfort in knowing that I had at least two friends with me was some what helpful. Regardless of that, I'm still scared shitless and can't wait for that to be over. My growing fears have also come in the form of stage fright and self-depreciation. These feelings have rose up from inside me because I found out that one of my electives was going to be guitar. Though I have a strong love for music, my incredibly shy nature has further prevented me from being comfortable in front of a large audience when it comes to performing. I mean, honestly I have the full right to be nervous since I don't even know how to play! Which makes no sense for me to even have to need to join guitar, but I have always found a jealousy within me of friends that could just sit around and play mindless chords and tunes that come as simple to them as breathing. I'm not hoping to become a freaking rock star or anything, but to help further my passion and love of music so that I can feel a little bit more connected to the music rather than just attempting to relate to the lyrics or having a total air rock out session within the privacy of my own room. The aspect of a deeper connection to music has giving me a small sliver of reassurance to work upon for now.
Today, was also the long awaited Comic-Con. Though I am no geek at heart, I guess it would be fair to say that I have developed into a proud fangirl. Of course, I was obviously looking forward to the long awaited reunion of the ever so sexy Mr. Robert Pattinson and the badass looking Ms. Kristen Stewart. It would be a fair enough assumption to say that it was an EPIC FAIL. There was none of the classic 'chemistry' we've all grown to enjoy seeing every time they were in the same room together. But what did make up for the epicness that was supposed to be a in the making ROBSTEN was what was defiantely awesome clips of New Moon! It made me flail like every other hormonal teen and twimom out there! Which was exactly it's job that it was entitled to. I'm even more on the edge of my seat as I anxiously wait for the release of New Moon. But I will always have my eyes open waiting for that day to come, and getting what ever ounce of R/K that Live Journal will give me!
Well that was all for now, can't wait to go practice bowling before or defiantely major fail tryouts that loom around the corner. And for now I bid you a SAYONARA!
~K.J Casey
Dear Diary,
So my dreaded answers came in the mail today. My highly anticipated schedule came in and with came attached a full does of disappointment. Yes, my fears have came true, the school gods have blessed cursed me with having to endure Alg 2 during my first trimester of school. It would be clear to say I actually had a panic attack, for I have always feared having problems in math. Though I had some comfort in knowing that I had at least two friends with me was some what helpful. Regardless of that, I'm still scared shitless and can't wait for that to be over. My growing fears have also come in the form of stage fright and self-depreciation. These feelings have rose up from inside me because I found out that one of my electives was going to be guitar. Though I have a strong love for music, my incredibly shy nature has further prevented me from being comfortable in front of a large audience when it comes to performing. I mean, honestly I have the full right to be nervous since I don't even know how to play! Which makes no sense for me to even have to need to join guitar, but I have always found a jealousy within me of friends that could just sit around and play mindless chords and tunes that come as simple to them as breathing. I'm not hoping to become a freaking rock star or anything, but to help further my passion and love of music so that I can feel a little bit more connected to the music rather than just attempting to relate to the lyrics or having a total air rock out session within the privacy of my own room. The aspect of a deeper connection to music has giving me a small sliver of reassurance to work upon for now.
Today, was also the long awaited Comic-Con. Though I am no geek at heart, I guess it would be fair to say that I have developed into a proud fangirl. Of course, I was obviously looking forward to the long awaited reunion of the ever so sexy Mr. Robert Pattinson and the badass looking Ms. Kristen Stewart. It would be a fair enough assumption to say that it was an EPIC FAIL. There was none of the classic 'chemistry' we've all grown to enjoy seeing every time they were in the same room together. But what did make up for the epicness that was supposed to be a in the making ROBSTEN was what was defiantely awesome clips of New Moon! It made me flail like every other hormonal teen and twimom out there! Which was exactly it's job that it was entitled to. I'm even more on the edge of my seat as I anxiously wait for the release of New Moon. But I will always have my eyes open waiting for that day to come, and getting what ever ounce of R/K that Live Journal will give me!
Well that was all for now, can't wait to go practice bowling before or defiantely major fail tryouts that loom around the corner. And for now I bid you a SAYONARA!
~K.J Casey