take me to the place i love.
this whole fan fic obsession= bad. i start imagining real people.. it's quite scary.
i've been thinking alot about what i'm gonna do after college. i say that like it's a definite i'll get in. i hope so.. somewhere. i i'll definitely try and keep up the straight a's this year.. hopefully that'll work.. *shrugs* but anyway i'm really scared. i mean like every other kid in the world my dream would be to be some sorta entertainer. i mean a musician= amazing.. but i'm not talented at any part of any band.. so that's ruled out pretty much. actress =] my dream since i was like 9.. lol don't have the talent for that but of course i'll audition for shit in college.. hopefully minor in it.. that'd be cool. and i mean as much as i'd love to be a psychiatrist.. that's such a grown up job. i don't ever want to grow up. i sound like peter pan but it's true. actually i take that back. i want to grow up but i dont want to hit 30.. or 40.. or ANYTHING past that. omg gross i mean how can a person wake up and go to work every day, drag there kids places, live for the weekends and your husband. i can't. i'll never settle down. with anyone, anywhere, with anything. i just know i can't. especially the anyone thing. cause my standards are ridiculously high. and i cover up for that with ridiculous insecurities. when i'm the one who should be hoping for people with low standards.
most of that pathetic rant was caused by fan fic. great. i want frank iero. and about 1939943 other things. nothing good will come from school.. i mean i know it will but nothing good for this.. or for us. but hopefully in the end for myself. cause i'm selfish and that's how i roll.
i've been thinking alot about what i'm gonna do after college. i say that like it's a definite i'll get in. i hope so.. somewhere. i i'll definitely try and keep up the straight a's this year.. hopefully that'll work.. *shrugs* but anyway i'm really scared. i mean like every other kid in the world my dream would be to be some sorta entertainer. i mean a musician= amazing.. but i'm not talented at any part of any band.. so that's ruled out pretty much. actress =] my dream since i was like 9.. lol don't have the talent for that but of course i'll audition for shit in college.. hopefully minor in it.. that'd be cool. and i mean as much as i'd love to be a psychiatrist.. that's such a grown up job. i don't ever want to grow up. i sound like peter pan but it's true. actually i take that back. i want to grow up but i dont want to hit 30.. or 40.. or ANYTHING past that. omg gross i mean how can a person wake up and go to work every day, drag there kids places, live for the weekends and your husband. i can't. i'll never settle down. with anyone, anywhere, with anything. i just know i can't. especially the anyone thing. cause my standards are ridiculously high. and i cover up for that with ridiculous insecurities. when i'm the one who should be hoping for people with low standards.
most of that pathetic rant was caused by fan fic. great. i want frank iero. and about 1939943 other things. nothing good will come from school.. i mean i know it will but nothing good for this.. or for us. but hopefully in the end for myself. cause i'm selfish and that's how i roll.