holding on?
so much has happened in just one day. i've had some many emotions run right through me. it started out really enjoyable then i start opening up to people (well holly really) i now see why i don't let people into my life. i'm like this huge burden so much has happened to me. and why does the past always come out and hit me right in the face. i know that i have so much going for me. well i hope it do. but i end up in tears i'm only 17 and i feel like i should be in my 40's...
it's hitting me that i'm going to get out of this town for a while i'm excited but then i'm not. i know that the only person the could make me stay wont. i just can't believe that really when it comes down to it i only have myself. you said we would be best friends even if we started dating new people and we knew it would happen. you said that you would ALWAYS be there for me. But why lie about that? i would give the world to you just to make you happy i know you would never do the same for me.
and fuck all the people that say i need to stop looking into the past! everyone does we all just take it in different ways. you don't know me and you will never get to me know me.
also i think it's really fucking funny when i hear people tell me that they have heard for other people that i'm a bad person i do coke i'm just one big fuck up! then when i ask who said it they just say its no big deal! WOW i keep my mouth shut about a lot of shit that happens around here i don't want to get into anyones business.
i'm sorry if you read this all the way through my just not in a good mood and i'm trying to let off some steam
it's hitting me that i'm going to get out of this town for a while i'm excited but then i'm not. i know that the only person the could make me stay wont. i just can't believe that really when it comes down to it i only have myself. you said we would be best friends even if we started dating new people and we knew it would happen. you said that you would ALWAYS be there for me. But why lie about that? i would give the world to you just to make you happy i know you would never do the same for me.
and fuck all the people that say i need to stop looking into the past! everyone does we all just take it in different ways. you don't know me and you will never get to me know me.
also i think it's really fucking funny when i hear people tell me that they have heard for other people that i'm a bad person i do coke i'm just one big fuck up! then when i ask who said it they just say its no big deal! WOW i keep my mouth shut about a lot of shit that happens around here i don't want to get into anyones business.
i'm sorry if you read this all the way through my just not in a good mood and i'm trying to let off some steam