May 27, 2008 17:56
this weekend i would say was by far the best thing i needed. other then not hanging out with my best friend who was in town or seeing some people there. but i really didn't want to think about them and have them ruin it for me. i liked the feeling of being in a town i don't know and not knowing it like it was the back of my hand. meeting new people, well i didn't really talk to anyone..i'm way to shy but the people i did meet were nice. i'm hoping this is what its going to feel like when i'm living on my own. i'm a little scared but i know that i'll be alright for the most part.
the hardest thing is not seeing my little brothers and sister. i can and will be alright not seeing anyone else. i love this town but i need a big change or i feel like i'm going to be suck here forever.
but i know that i think way to much about being here the rest of my life. i just don't want to become my mother. its really sad to say but i've learned for her mistakes i know what to do and how to deal with a lot of shit, better then other people my age. it nice to know that i WONT FUCK UP as many times as most people. but i know i will fuck up.
i have so much to do this month, i'm getting stressed out
SHIT TO DO BEFORE JUNE 30th/
1) get my braces off
2) get my drivers license
3) figure out how i'm getting to Bosie (train/air plane/bus/car)
4) make sure i have a job when i move
5) think of a way to tell my baby sister she wont see me for 3 plus months.... :/
6) get more school work done and out of the way
7) try and get money saved to move but i only have 2 pay checks that HAVE to go to my braces.
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i'm getting stressed.